Hi, i was diagnosed 3 weeks ago with left breast cancer. I originally had one biopsy of the lump in my breast amd one of the lymph node underarm. Results came back that the lump is a 15mm tumour and the one under arm lymph node isnt cancerous however the consultant surgeon was not convinced. I had all the scans and was booked in for a repeat biopsy of the lymph node. The day came pretty quickly and i went for this biopsy, only to find out that my MRI scan results were back and i have 4 tumours in left breast and potentially 2 in the lymph nodes so i had another 7 biopsies this day. It was the worst thing iv ever experienced. The anaesthetist helped with the breast biopsies but underarm i felt everything, i was traumatised. Cried like a baby, my mum was crying too. It was just over a week ago and i still dont think iv gotten over it. Im now waiting for these results to find out what surgery i will be having and then what treatment. I hope they dont take long, the pain in my breast is annoying. I now feel my nipple is inverted and tingly pain. I suffer with anxiety and depression and im on medication for it, this is all such a hard thing to avoid letting myself sink. I am a strong woman been through so much in my 45 years of life so i believe and have faith im gonna be alright. I just have my moments where i feel sad and im abit snappy and irritable. Iv also got so much worries with my son as he is awaiting life threatening surgery. His health hasnt been great and so iv got it all worrying me. My sleeps abit all over the place at the moment. I wasnt sure about coming in here but i do need to speak with others going through this. Thankyou for allowing me the opportunity.
Hi hun, so i have my plan now, well i know whats going to happen. I see Oncology Tomorrow then i will be starting chemotherapy dont know how long for yet but then a mastectomy.
Im so full of mixed emotions, im scared i wont be me anymore. My big bouncy curly hair and my breasts are a big part of me too but i know what has to be done has to be done!!! Im just scared.
My faith in the lord is keeping me strong, my mental health is being tested. I just keep singing destinys child Im a survivor, im not gone give up, im a survivor keep on surviving.
I had to go for a full dental check yesterday as i cant start chemo if i need dental work and i do need one tooth removed and a full deep clean. Im so petrified of needles that i always get referred to hospital for tooth extraction however i found out i have to get injection in my gums for the deep clean so im wondering whether to just let them take out my tooth same time even though im petrified of it.....i panic badly. The wait for the hospital could delay my chemo.
Just feel like crying 
No point stressing over something i have no control over.
Xxx
