My husband died in my arms on the 2nd May (2009) - what happens now?

Ok thanks Kev i'll let you know tomorrow then , you've got me curious but i think i know what he'll say . Anyway night all . speak tommorow
Lynne xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Ok Lynne, Nite nite.

Kev xx

Hi all, just been reading all your posts. You all seem to keep so active. I just can't be bothered with anyone or anything but maybe that just means I am lazy.
Kev and Sue, I hope you both enjoy Cornwall visits Lynne, my daughter calls it 'Meadowhell' too but I thought it was just her lol. Good luck with doctor's meeting tomorrow and well done on booking holiday. Helen glad you enjoyed Spain. Ailsa rather you than me getting a tattoo. Claire I read your profile and have to wonder why people are so horrible. You would think they would pull togehter in these times of grief wouldn't you. Sorry if I missed anyone burt hope you all have a good day tomorrow. Love Patricia x x

Hi Patricia, thanks I will enjoy Cornwall and Devon.

Hope you are sort of doing alright.

Kev xx

Hi Kev, Yeah, 'sort' of thanks. x x Patricia x x

Morning everyone!!

Have a good day at work Ailsa, I fell asleep at the pictures once watching Harry Potter!! Don`t think I snored though!!
Lynne good luck today, let us know how you get on xxx

Patricia I don`t think you`re lazy we just all react differently to this don`t we?

Kev are you packed yet? How long do you go for?

I`ve recently had a friend request from a lad I went to school with, just been reading his profile and he lost his wife a year ago. Just had to share his little note on his profile :

`Death leaves a heartache no one can heal, love leaves a memory no one can steal.`

Helen xxx

Hi All,

Helen - What a lovely little saying!

Lynne - good luck with the doctor. I haven't had any contact from Wully's consultants and have only seen his GP who came to the house a couple of weeks after he died. Some of the things just made me mad to be honest. Wully's blood levels were very bad before he died and the GP said that should have been an indication that he was terminal as if blaming the hospice for not telling us however he was still at home and I spoke to the GP a couple of times about it and he never told me then so why say it after? But I am not going to dwell on the anger or it will consume me.

I spoke to a medium on Sunday and I am still half and half whether I believe it or not but I did get a lot of comfort from it as she said a lot of things that were true (without any prompting and only yes/no answers). She said that Wully has a big blanket around me at the moment and is protecting me and he is sorry for putting me through all this pain. I was telling my mum about it yesterday and I had, had a bit of an emotional day anyway so feeling a bit teary today. Probably worried about the holiday tomorrow. Boys are hyper excited about going to Disney Paris. They can't wait!! I can't wait to see their little faces when they get there. I will post some pics when I get back.

Take care everyone.

Gayle x

Hi Gayle

I cried on and off the whole day before we went away last week, crazy isn`t it? But pleased to say was ok while we were away. Have a lovely, lovely time. It was just what we needed and am sure it will do you good too

Helen xxx

Gayle, I hope the holiday goes well. Children are so lovely aren't they. It is good that you have them to keep you busy. No time to wallow in self pity eh? How is the house going?
Lynne, hope things have gone well today with doc.
Helen that little post on your friend's profile really touched my heart. How moving. I have written it down for future reference. Thank you.
Everyone else hope you are not having too bad a day.

Because I have agreed to it, I am going out for dinner tonight but really don't feel like it. Oh well guess I just have to force myself to go out and enjoy it. I am going out with 3 friends and used to love these meetings but now it all seems so mundane and pointless. I just go throught the motions because I do not want to lose good friends.
Bye for now. x x Love and angel hugs x x Patricia