My husband died in my arms on the 2nd May (2009) - what happens now?

Congratulations Lesley, that's wonderfull news...bet he is so gorgeous.
Ailsa, thinking of you today, hope that you are OK as can be.
Love and ((((((((((HUGS))))))))))) for you all.
Quill xxxxx

Congratulations Lesley - lovely news xx

Congraatulations to the new granny , you really will enjoy every minite of him so pleased he is here , well done for coping so well xx . Ailsa hope you've been ok and managed to get to the cemmy xx Jacqui , so glad you've come back to us , we're not a bad lot really . Just got in after a very tough day and then still had to visit dad when i'd finished , they have had to put a feeding tube in , as his mouth has swelled up that much but he does seem ok in him self , so he will be in for a few more days yet i think . Hope you enjoy your flipping lay in in the morning Helen , and no i dont begrudge it you at all lol , no you enjoy , all of you that can stay in bed you must do so , i would if i had the chance lol .

Take care 

 Lynne xxxx

Sorry Ailsa , just read your post i must have missed it , so glad you made it aand the snowman sounds lovely , did you take any pictures xxxx

Evening Everyone,

Congratulations Lesley on the birth of your first grandchild, you will be so happy it's all passed and i am sure Colin would have been so proud, i am sure he will be looking down on you all. I do hope Rachel and baby Daniel George is doing fine and of course the proud dad. I am so happy for you as it has made a differance to my life having Charlie.

Ailsa saw your photos on facebook, glad you have all got through the day. Well we have had more snow here today again. Schools all closed again. My friends are not done tonight as very cold and slippy. Darren out with his pals for the last time before he goes away. He is hopeing he gets away ok on Sat. We both had a wee cry tonight i will miss him so much and i think he is just realising he will miss us all to and he will miss so much of Charlie growing up, but we will get our webcams set up.

Hope everyone else doing ok in this awful weather, i think we have to have it like this for a few more weeks. I am off work tomorrow so not so bad. Speak soon Luv and Hugs to you all Fiona xxxxxxxx  

dear Lynne

glad that dad's not too bad; which hospital do you work for?

i'll be having a lie in on your behalf tomorrow as well, as all schools in south gloucestershire are shut - don't say ~i never do anything for you!!!

really fed up with this weather now, and running out of plastic bags for the dog's paws! might try cling film............

My new little children were due to start nursery today, so it's a shame for then, as I know that at least two of them were counting sleeps until they started. have loads of work to be getting on with at home - motivation is the only issue. Haven't been to the cemmy for a few days; can't get there at the moment as the road is just a sheet of ice.

Love to all, especially grandma penguins

Sue xx

For you Lesley.xxxxxxxx

Seen the photos on face book now Ailsa , i'm so behind with all the posts , Sue i'll private message you about the hospital xxx

Just thought I would pop on before I go to bed.  Stu's girlfriend just left to go and meet Stu on his way home.  He  should have been watching the Manchester Derby today but after it was called off he decided to go for a drink for his Dad anyway.  I am so glad we got to the cemmy today.  I think I would have been fretting if we hadn't.  It was more like 4 hours for the walk.  When the roads clear I am going to check the miles as it must be a fair few.  I left Chris a card and as some of you have seen on FB I built him a snowman as the flower pots were all frozen and I couldn't leave any flowers.

I am on holiday again tomorrow so I hope I can get for my van sometime tomorrow.  It is still stuck at work.

I'm looking forward to seeing some pictures of the new arrival Lesley now you have joined the rest of us grandmas!

It is a shame that the new littles ones couldn't get started at nursery Sue if they were so looking forward to it.

I'm glad to hear your Dad is doing okay Lynne.  Be careful out on the roads tomorrow.

Goodnight everyone.  Ailsa xxx

Hi guys

Lesley, I am delighted to hear of the new arrival, although it sounds as if it was a long day for you all. Never mind every toe and finger, every smile, every cuddle you have makes it worth it.  Fiona - special squeezy, squashy hig bugs to you for this week - you can do this hun - and as has been said you will hear all Darren's wonderful stories and news.  And just think, you will have to make sure that you are dressed and hair tidy everytime you are on the computer if you have a webcam!!  When Ed's eldest was in Doha we got a webcam, DO YOU KNOW HOW AWFUL THEY MAKE YOU LOOK!!  I used to make sure that I was standing to one side so that you could just make out that I was there and no more, but it was lovely to be able to see the wee ones, and when they realised they could hear Gramps' voice and used to come right up to the screen to see if they could see him it was gorgeous. 

Jacqui, so glad that you are still with us, and please - don't ever think that you can't post every or any random thought that is in your head.  All of us have days that are so grim, so unbearable, so inconceivable, and having somewhere to let it out can really help.  And then bizarrely you/we have a day when you are able to joke, to keep others afloat and believe that you can actually keep going - we take it in turns hun.  So post away.

Lynne I am so glad your are home safely, all the Scottish penguins that set out on the march south to rescue you have now returned home!  You would have seen me ....... I was the one sliding along on my belly squealing "Wwwhhheeeeeee".

Well, what have I done this evening.  Step-daughter and boyfriend are here as you know, she is flying back out to Dubai tomorrow (actually we have just discovered that the flight may have been cancelled but that makes things SO complicated that I can't even begin to add that to the equation!) So having been at work for a few hours I came home, they arrived later and we all had tea, watched a DVD and she started to pack her suitcases.  I came upstairs to see what everyone here was up to and out of the blue downstairs something kicked off, shouting and accusations and doors slamming. 

I stayed up here for about half an hour and then decided that I should give them some space and went out with the dogs.  So picture the scene, there I am, walking the streets with two pyjama clad mutts (see Sue, I told you my guys wear some odd gear) in the snow.  Eventually at 10 o'clock I 'phoned a friend' and arranged to drop the dogs off at home and go round for a coffee, really just to give them some space.  So home I went (put the heater on in Boy's bedroom because with the level of acrimony I couldn't imagine them being within ten feet of each other let alone sharing a bed!) and I sneaked out having left a note on the floor in the hall saying where I was and that I had my phone with me.

Three glasses of wine later my phone goes and a very sad step-daughter saying that she is on her way up too!  A very teary girl trying to work out in her head what she should do, after an hour she came home with me following on half an hour later.  At the moment she feels that it is all over, but who knows.   Although the last week or two have been very tense and draining, I now understand more as to why she has been 'difficult'. 

I know that you guys really don't need to know all this, but I am here wondering if I am 'handling' it all okay.  The odd thing is, although I completely feel for her and know that she feels that this is the worst thing that could happen, a bit inside me is feeling  - Darling, however this pans out you will be ok, this is not the end of the world, you are young and beautiful and strong, you will bounce back.  Having seen the end of the world as I know it, I can assure you, this is not it...... but that is probably the wine talking. 

Anyway, all is quiet downstairs so I am off to bed and in the morning we will see what happens, who flys where, if they are still together ......... does anyone remember the American programme 'Soap' .... I think I am in an episode and no one has told me!

Night to all, loads of love Judi xx