My husband died in my arms on the 2nd May (2009) - what happens now?

And i'm waiting to see if a speed camera flashed me on sat dam dam dam xxxx

Hi everyone.  Lynne I really hope the camera didn't get you.  I've been busy, busy, busy this evening.  Stu is going to do some plastering for me next week so he was round earlier telling me what I needed to get in for him to do it.  I have started packing for my trip to London on Friday.  I have upgraded my ticket to first class so that should make it a more pleasant journey.  Lynne, Patricia I have my fingers crossed for both your Dad's results.  My God-father (my Mum's brother) had an operation for colon cancer on Monday.  I visited him in September when I did one of my Scotland trips.  It appears he and my Aunt went for routine screening and he found out he had the cancer that way.  It has been caught so early that he had no symptoms whatsoever.  He will have a temporary ilyostomy for 6 months but I don't think there are plans for him to have any other treatment as the operation should remove the cancer completely.  I am going to go off and make him a get well card and keep my fingers crossed he makes a speedy recovery.

One other little bit of news - on Monday after my London trip my special stained glass round window is being fitted.  I'm sure I will be fit for nothing once it is in place but it will be a very fitting tribute to Chris & I.

Right - this isn't getting my packing or my cards done is it?  take care everyone.  Lynne take care of that finger please!  Ailsa xxx

Dads biopsy was clear , so at least some good news but he's still in such a mess but they are leaving him alone for 3 months now , just need to drag my self from the bottem of the swimming pool and get on with things

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Evening all, sorry I didn't get back my internet connection is all over the place at the moment, one moment I seem to be connected and the next it's all frozen and then says there is no connection (hmm a bit like life then!).  Hopefully it will hold whilst I post this, not sure what to do with it as it isn't an ongoing problem just intermittent and I can't bear trying to talk to BT India about it! So before I start to ramble I will send you all hugs, join hands with Patricia and surround you all with the sparkly rope - Fiona the fairy dust is simmering as I type! - the Mexican chimney is alight on the ledge and the snuggly blankets await xxxxx

Things aren't so good with the in-laws at the moment, father-on-law is deteriorating and getting quite confused, talking a lot of rubbish sometimes and very wobbly on his feet.  He's just had to have the epidural repostioned again as it completely blocked on Sunday, but he's dozing a lot and seems quite calm and content.  Mother-in-law has been confirmed with cancer on her bladder and had it resected(?) today so is very uncomfortable and sore, but also had to have an MRI scan tonight as she has something going on with her liver, maybe just cysts but she had a CT scan for that on Tuesday and they wanted the MRI as a result of that.... bit worried on that. 

Had a silly moment this morning though.  It was beautiful and frosty and Sam and I took the dogs out across the fields behind her house and into the woods there, on the way back we were walking around the edge of the ploughed field and I got a call from "Phil the bag", they organise collections of textiles and pay per kilo for organisations and charities, schools etc.  A friend of mine is doing the London Marathon next year and is collecting for charity so I said I would arrange this for her, to save her some time and this was a lovely lady confirming everything and giving me some more details.  I was so busy nattering away and listening to her that wasn't looking carefully, slipped on a bad muddy patch and sailed over sideways (Lynne you would have been proud of me), mobile still firmly in my hand and because of that I seemed to punch myself in the face as I landed - with the lady still nattering away in my ear.  Sam was in a panic thinking I must have hurt myself, I managed to tell the lady I would have to phone her back as I was now lying in a field of mud, at that moment both the boys wondered what on earth mummy was doing so came and stuck their noses in my face. Well that was it, I couldn't stop laughing, Sam was laughing too then, I told her I'd phone back and hung up but then couldn't get up as we were both laughing so much.  So there I was covered in mud, sore face, sore leg where I went sideways and luckily the padded jacket saved the rest!  No major damage and I did get up in the end but glad Sam was there or I would have had to phone the Penguin Posse for a lift or a crane - then we would all have been waddling round in the mud laughing! 

Just realised I've rambled on again and don't know what will happen when I his "Post" - so here goes, lots of love and hugs again, take care all and keep swimming, through the mud, the fog or..... the snow! xxxxxxxxx

Good news Lynne - lifejacket chucked around you and dragging you into the boat now, you can have a little break from swimming and drink this lovely Baileys with me xxxxxxxxx

Hi Ailsa, sorry missed you in the posting there xxxxxx

Hi.  Lynne that is really good news about your Dad but I know how down he is so it sounds to me like both of you need to get in the circle of Rosemary & Patricia's hands and take care of yourselves.  Although - are you fit for cuddling after your fall Rosemary?  I have a sneaking feeling you will ache when you wake up tomorrow.  It isn't good to fall these days - we're out of practice you know.  You will need to watch out for the bruises as well.  Sorry to hear that your FIL is not so well.  I hope your MIL & FIL are showing some signs of improving very soon so it is a little less worrying for you all.  Take care everyone.  Ailsa xxx

Oh, Rosemary,

I'm sorry that you fell, but I have to admit that the image you described made me laugh out loud - thank you for cheering up a grumpy old penguin xx

Rosemary, are you, Lynne and Gayle in competition to see who can do the most damage to themselves? I think Lynne is in lead if you are.

Lynne, it is good to hear that your dad's biopsy results are ok. Sorry he is not feeling so good though.

Ailsa, sorry to hear about your God father's cancer diagnosis. Thankfully they have caught it early.

Rosemary, I didn't realise your mil was ill too. So sorry. It must be so hard for you having them both ill.

((((hugs))))) to Helen and Nat for the presentation x x xx

Love and angel hugs to everyone x x x Patricia x x x

hi penguins

oh you do all seem to be in the wars at the moment, rosemary, lynne and gayle. You've all made it this far no need to do your selves harm now!! lol!!

Good to hear that your dads biopsy was clear.

sorry that your in-laws are ill rosemary.

I have spent the evening baking biscuits, mince pies and christmas puddings for the church fate with my dad all evening, it has been a long time since i last baked. I like baking but haven't done it in a very long time as there was little reason for just two of us, even less now. made some rather nice lemon biscuits if i do say so myself.

take care all, big hugs

Becky

Sounds like you had a good day Becky. The biscuits sound lovely. Perhaps you could bake for your colleagues when you return to work. My daughter does that and whatever she takes in is gone in a flash.

Take care Becky.

Love and angel hugs x x x Patricia x x x