My husband died in my arms on the 2nd May (2009) - what happens now?

Good morning everyone. Lovely day here at last. I'm just about packed ready to set off to Bracknell and then Weymouth. Hope you all have a good weekend. I probably won't be on again before Tuesday evening so take care everyone. Ailsa xx

Drive carefully and have a lovely weekend
May the sun shine for you
sue x

Hi Everyone i hope you've all got something planned for the weekend , Ailsa has got a lovely one in store . My son phoned me a tea time and said they we're going for a drive out and was going to call for some tea out and would i like to go ? would i? iwas ready in 5 mins . my son drove for about 30 mins we walked in a nice country pub where my littel grandson decided to be sick oops poor thing , we made a quick exit and apoligised we then came home and had a take away instead , the little 1 didn't eat anything but he seemed fine so hopfully he's ok now .
Well i survived my first week back at work , someone said today i looked more settled at the end of the week than i did at the begining ,i think that about sums thing up , i was lost at the start of the week , i didn't know what i wanted , but now i'm glad i went back , its still very hard to settle to do to much but everyone is happy for me to carry on doing what i want really . I still cry when i'm on my own (usually when i've just dropped someone off) i've usually been trying to talk to the patient and keep them happy but once they've gone i kinda start thinking about how much i miss my husband , and the tears flow , if ever i get pulled over i would look a right mess .
There was another funny moment today , i was chatting away to one of my patients as i was taking him home , he was very nice so i found him easy to talk to , well would you believe he asked for my phone number , was i flattered , ha ha he was 82 and blind and i'm not joking , he said i sounded nice , ah poor dear , i did have to turn him down tho , but i think he'll get over the loss pretty soon .
Anyway have a nice evening every one
Take care

Lynne
xxxx

Hi Lynne,

Glad your week ended okay and you even got chatted up lol!!! I am going to try and keep busy this weekend as last weekend was awful because it was quiet. Went out for the day today and took the boys for school shoes. That was horrendous as we were an hour in Clarks as it was so busy so by the time we were leaving the boys were going mad and I was ready to start crying in the middle of the shop. I would have taken any shoes by then! Going to have an early night tonight as I am shattered then out at a family day event tomorrow which the boys are looking forward to then my parents house on Sunday. Also have viewers on Sunday night so will need to do some housework too. Hopefully that will keep the demons at bay! Hope your weekend goes okay.

Kev, are you doing okay today?

Hope everyone else is okay too and have plans for the weekend.

Gayle x

Hi everyone, Gayle and Lynne, I'm ok ta. Clarkes is a nightmare on a quiet day let alone a busy one. Hope you all keeping as well as can be and don't forget to look after yourselves sometimes.

Kev xx

Hope you get a good nights sleep Gayle , i've got 1 or 2 things planned witht the family for the weekend , like you say you have to keep planning , i relly dont know what i'd without my kids . Hope the viewings go well .
Yes Sue i love my job and no 2 days are the same so i know i made the right decision to go back , yeah kids what would we do without them . My little granddaughter was gutted we couldn't eat out but i said we'll have to go next week , any excuse for their company .
I like my pic again thank you

You look after yourself to Kev ,

Lynne xxxxx

Hi guys sorry I have not been around but have been a sobbing mess for two days. I dont know what started it but the flood gates opened and tears everwhere.. Apparantly I have "moved on " to another stage of the bereavement process and am no longer in denial......well that makes me feel a whole lot better and have awarded myself with a trophy.....cant wait for the next stage eh!!!!
Hope you are all behaving and looking forward to the weekend....
lots of luv kaz xxxxx

Kaz
so sorry
Sue x