My husband died in my arms on the 2nd May (2009) - what happens now?

Lynne you know us all so well!!  I knew I would forget something.  Gayle that is wonderful news about your sisters IVF so I have everything crossed for a great result.  Isn't another little Maddie a lovely target to aim for?  Ailsa xxx

Wise?

you're having a laugh!!

xx

That made me smile Lynne, Doc Rosemary eh?  Well as you are the "Resident accident waiting to happen" you'd better move down here beside me!  lol Hope it has made it a little clearer for you Lynda, and another well done on the boob squishing it's amazing how flat they can go isn't it? (Sorry Dave)  I had one last year and was so grateful to the girls on here and also one lovely lady who was in touch by text before and after the ordeal - it's what gets us all through now.

Sorry still been quiet lately, trying to help the in-laws cope and still getting on with all the bits and bobs here tends to do my head in a bit and although I have been keeping up with you all (and posting and losing them when I did get fingers to keyboard!) I don't always have the words to put down the feelings.  It's the knowing whats coming, but not knowing and the worry about how to help mother in law cope through the worst of it all and afterwards as well, I know we will get through as will she somehow but it's finding the strength again to do it - but of course that will happen too. 

So pleased for you both Helen and Gayle, "boyfriend" also made me smile, it's lovely that you are both finding happiness and that special feeling with someone, I hope it works for you but enjoy every moment right now anyway.  Gayle I hate going to the dentist (sorry Judes) but actually I find going to the hairdresser even worse and both Samantha and Daniel both had to have a lot of orthodontist work done (they took after their dad with their teeth) so we got used to having to put up with some long visits, bless little Jamie (or was it Ewan?) 

Ailsa glad you are getting sorted on the HRT if it works for you go for it, power surges aren;t much fun and sleeping is necessary, so until the doc can help you with an alternative then "keep taking the tablets"  My acupuncture lady could probably help you, or maybe some reiki?  The building work is sounding good, you are doing so well but don't forget to stick to the curfew.

Going to post this before I lose it and will try and get back tomorrow for the others I have missed tonight (that doesn't mean you and the Lederhosen Judi, that I couldn't miss!) so love and hugs to you all, sleep tight xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Yes wise My penguin friend , you've put me right quite a few times xx Ailsa my hand is a lot better thank you , just one little bit that still needs to dry up and then i think it will soon clear up .. xxxx

Yay!  It posted :-)))))   Just popped back to say Lynda you don't dribble, or even drivel, well actually we all do, so don't worry just keep doing it and have another Baileys xxxx

Oh and big news for this week - Samantha has changed the wedding date, it's not 9th April 2011, only 9 months to lose weight!!!!!!!!

Night night xxxxx

By jove she got it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ha ha I am sooooo excited, thought I had talked too much then not enough!! But they offered it me!!!!!! Said they would let me know tomorrow but they rang just as I was going into Story ha ha!!! Still cant put it on face book as not told my boss yet but I ve accepted it!  More money, round the corner and seems a lovely place and a lovely team xJust got to go in on Friday to sort details out. So really pleased, wish I could come home and tell Paul but not to be so told anyone else who would stay still long enough and listen lol!!

Yes I cried at Toy Story too xxx

Will make more sense tomorrow I hope

Night, Helen xxx

Well done Helen, wishing you loads of happiness in your new job.
Sending loads of love and (((((HUGS)))))) for you all.
Quill xxxxxx

Grrrrr just lost my post!!!! Ahhhh

Helen that is fantastic news - congratulations!!!!  We knew you could do it - whats not to love about you.  Judi, have a fantastic holiday and have a drink for the penguins.  Ailsa, i'm glad you sorted out the medication.  If its something you need to do and it makes you feel better then you should do it.  And definitely take your hankies to Toy Story - its theme is kind of about moving on and letting go so that should explain the tears.  Lynda, don't listen to Lynne - the drunk ones!!  Wait till you see her "never again" weekend posts.  Oh and did we tell you her nickname is Calamity Jane?  Love you loads Lynne xx  Forgot to say thats great news about your Dad - I hope the pallative team are a help and fingers crossed the next operation is a better success than the last one.  I went to the docs and he has made a suggestion to try something.  I talked it over with the boyfriend (still sounds strange) as he is the only person I have to talk about intimate inner workings lol and he has talked me into going for it after I told him what the GP says.  Nice to know he is worrying about me.  It should fix some of my problems but I will wait until I come back from Spain to do it in case I have any issues when I am abroad after having the thing done.  Just need to tackle the other things on the list when I get this bit sorted!  I have also started house hunting after being nagged sufficiently by loads of people.  I need to economise more and start saving more but don't expect me to do anything in a hurry lol.  Jamie is fine after his ordeal (or was it my ordeal?).  Thanks for all the kind words.  I had to laugh at him as he went to his grans and she was fussing over him asking how it went and he was like oh it was fine.  I'm sat shaking my head laughing.  What a boy.  My sis went back today and had 2 perfect 10/10 embryos put back in so fingers crossed.  I did tell her about Maddie Lynne as I hoped it would encourage her to keep positive.  Hard I know but I think it helped a little.

Anyway, I am off to bed.  I have a ton of work to get through before my holiday so I have told myself to get my head down (stay off facebook) and get through a mountain tomorrow.  Ok I might not be completely off facebook but I will try :)

Night night penguins

Gayle xxx

Helen that's amazing!!! Well done you... celebrations in order me thinks - do you know if you can make it on the 14th yet? xx

And Lynne - well the cheek of it!!! Think there may have been a name missing off that 'drunks' list madam... ;o) Hope your hand is on the mend hun. xx

Gayle hope you got on OK at the docs - and the boys at the dentist, bless... xx

Judes I seem to have been constantly ironing fot the last few days, so if I have to suffer so should you! Now get your packing done! xx

Sending big hugs Ailsa, Rosemay, Fiona, Patricia, Bren, Lesley, Lynda, Dottee and everyone else - I do read your posts every day and think of you all often, even though I am still a bit quiet at the moment. I've got a few issues at work and with family just at the moment, and it's not helping me to fight my way back out of the pit I fell into a few weeks ago - but I know it will pass.

Anyway, I'll be missing for the next week or so - off on our cruise round the med - but will check in when I can. Been busy packing all day trying to fit normal wear, formal wear, and pirate gear into our medium sized suitcases! We look hysterical in our costumes... 

Take care all, speak soon, love Manda xx

PS. Don't forget the manchester meet on August 14th if anyone else can make it just give me a shout - it would be great to see you! xx

Yabba Dabba DOOOoooooooo Helen.  That is fantastic .... but of course I never for one second thought it would go any other way.   Now you had better make the most of these holidays because think I am right in saying that you are going to be like the rest of us and only have a NORMAL amount of holidays now!!!

Munchkin - I am glad that you were able to talk to your beau (oh how sweetly old fashioned am I!) about your 'thing' and I think that sorting out the 'thing' is surely the right thing to do before you see about the other 'things'!  Okay, everyone clear on that now.  No, seriously - good for you going to the doc to sort out any problems.  No go and enjoy yourself in Spain and we will all cross everything for your sister. 

Clown, clown, CLOWN ......... excuse me but I resemble that remark! I am not the one who shares their house with a penguin called Napoleon ..... am I Sue!!!!  Ooops, although I do have a dog called Kat.

Ailsa, no ironing done, packing .... err  not yet. But I have got some Euros -  so can I have some Brownie points for that please?  Glad that you have realised hun that you might need to slow down even just a little bit.  10pm painting is not ideal!   Now Bex go and make your mum a cup of tea.

Rosemary - shall we all come down and go outfit shopping with you? Patricia seems to think that you need at least three outfits so she is a master at that.  (I am assuming that you meant NOW 9th April and not NOT 9th April ..... if you know what I mean.)

Fiona - is Bud still going mad at bed time?  Give Charlie a squeeze from me.  Kim must be enjoying the holidays I would imagine.  It will be hard for her to go back again after summer.  How is Darren getting on - I will remember to ask Boy the name of the company he got work with at the moment.  Speaking of Boy I was in stitches this morning.  He went to the same warped sense of humour school that I did - He is working in the Scottish Assembly Rooms this week putting up the stages, rigging and lighting etc for the Edinburgh Festival.  When I spoke to him last night he sounded happy but shattered.  Hard, physical work.  Got a message from him  " after traipsing up and down them for 10 hours, I have named every individual stair in the assembly rooms. my favourite is gustav, he's a step up from the rest."  Well it made me laugh.

Night all - hopefully get on for a quick hello tomorrow before I become a laderhosen wearing, beer-swilling (well a nice G&T) singing Munich .... ian!

Judi xxxxx