My husband died in my arms on the 2nd May (2009) - what happens now?

Just another quick one to say morning and send hugs to those that need them . I promise to post properly tonight , my mind and body was so tired last night , it wasn't the camping that tired me out but the 5 hour walk the next day but i dont suppose the alcohol from sat night helped either . Lynda anything you want to know just ask , it was the same for us all when we first started posting but we have added in numbers now but you really will start to feel "at home" if you keep posting and well done on getting through a tough day .

 Take care all

 Lynne xxxx

Hi everyone

Lynda hope you re feeling bit better today. Think a lot of us struggled with the 6 month mark, look after yourself xxx

Judi glad you re calmer in yourself. Hope Kat is better soon xx

Fiona glad you enjoyed the concert, you did really well. Songs really get to me so think you did well on just one song xx

Lynne glad you enjoyed your camping but your hand must be sore xx

Gayle whay a way to brighten up a Monday morning.....Firemen!!!! Hope Jamie gets on ok at the dentist xx Think weekends are the hardest, that s when the gap feels so much bigger. Even now I have to plan things still to pass them, getting easier but need to be busy still.

Ailsa as ever you are so busy,enjoy your few days to yourself xx We need to book our trains to London soon, trying to be organised lol xx

Sue good for you having a lie in and a lazy day, me too!! Good isnt it.Also trying to do a bit of revision and re capping for my interview. Its on Wednesday but can I ask you all a favour. Please dont put anything on facebook as a few of my work colleagues are on there and they dont know I ve applied for a different job yet. I ve told the head and deputy but thats it.

Well I will continue with my lazy day lol!! Might go to the gym and for a swim with Nat later then having a day out with my friend tomorrow as he works nights and been signed off work but think he ll be back this week so making most of last day off. Just hope weather improves!!

Have a good Monday everyone

Helen xxx

Thanks to all my new pals on this site for the encouragement -- having a lazy day today as I have a breast screening tomorrow morn -- great to look forward to -- might just as well jam my boobs in the freezer door. I am amazed in this day + age that noone has come up with a more comfortable way of doing it. Hope everyone is havin a good day. Love + hugs xx Lynda

A quick post this morning, it is still morning in Canada.  Just wanted to say to Lynda that I lost my Dan Oct 27, all winter I was fighting off colds and viruses, would get better for a week or so and then the sore throat and so on.  I think our immune systems go haywire when we are grieving, also the exhaustion, etc....  So far I have been well the last month or so but it was constant all winter.  So fairly common I think with all you are going through.  Six months is a very tough one but you will get through it, one day at a time, sometimes one hour at a time.  Listen to the wise advice from these wonderful ladies here, they do truly care.

I am off to the airport in a few hours to pick up my cousin, one nice thing that happened because of Dan's illness, my cousin and I got our first apartment together in Toronto when we were very young and life happened, we drifted apart but have reconnected this past year and become close again.  So I must get myself together and take the dog for his walk, it is pretty hot here today so will be a short one.

hugs to everyone

Hi Everyone, I have been out round town tonight this is our civic week so we done the treated hunt, the heavens opened and we all got soaked we didn't win but we were only four points less than the winners so not to bad. Lynda I hope you are feeling a bit better now keep posting. Lynne glad you enjoyed your camping trip I had a we laugh thinking of you trying to get your bed through the door. Gayle hope you are doing ok and nice to hear you have sorted things out with your boss please please don't let me see your new phone or I will want one. Helen I wish you luck in your interview on Wednesday. Judi hope Kat is getting on ok now and got on ok at vets today. Ailsa you are always so busy but I think it's a good thing to keep busy. It is so close here tonight very muggy I think we need thunder to clear the air. I am sending you all a hug. Fiona x x

Sorry I meant treasure hunt I really should read over my post before I post it x

Evening all .

 hope everybody is having a good evening

. I've just about recovered for the weekend and i've even been for a little jog/walk/stumble/trip over on the park . My hand is very sore after knocking it several times whilst working and i'm annoyed at my self now for doing it , dam stupid blond !!! .

 Good luck for wednesday Helen  and i promise not to say anything on F/B . Hope your still enjoying your lazy days to those that are having them lol (Sue and Helen ) . Hugs to everybody else  sorry its a short one xxxxx

Take care

Lynne xxxx

being unemployed has its better moments!!   xx

Hi everyone

Today was ok thanks to lovely Esme.  Bit of a quandry re my poor Kitty-Kat and a long-ago organised weekend away .... to go or not to go .... that was the question.   Anyway, after a stiff talking to from Rosemary I am off to Munich on Friday.  Not, not as glamorous as it sounds! lol.  My friend's son is competing in the World Championships - he is a marksman (rifle shotting) and has been picked for the 2012 Olympics and had asked months ago if his mum would come out and bring his Aunty Judes.  Anyway, long story short (yeah, yeah) Kat and Joe are going to the kennels (they will take good care of her) and I am going to wear a pair of laderhoosen and sing Bavarian drinking songs ....... or maybe not ..... I don't want to frighten them do I.

Thanks Fiona, Kat is doing much better and was VERY pleased to get her bandages off tonight at the vets .... but not so pleased to get the lampshade on her head!  Now repeat after me "I don't NEED a new phone, I don't NEED a new phone"

Bren, how lovely that you and your cousin have 'found each other' again.  As you say, it is a strange old life isn't it .... have to grab on to the good things that come out of the bad, don't we.  Lynda, good luck for the morning ouch!. xxxx  And Helen ...... ssshhhhhhhh .... not a word on FB.

Gayle ..... Gayle ...... GAYLE  (tapping on the screen to get your attention) put that Fireman down right now!  Lynne my little cupcake .... look after that hand of yours.  And we love you being a blonde!  Sue, keep chillin' for a few weeks yet, you deserve it. 

Speak soon all,

Love Judi xxx

Hi everyone.  Right - sulking now!!!  Even my clever sectional posting has not worked tonight and I just lost a reasonably short post (I don't do many of them).  Will say goodnight.  Sue I am glad you are enjoying the relax.  Helen good luck tomorrow and I won't breathe a word on FB. Lynne - hope the hand gets better soon.  Gayle you work so hard for those little boys you deserve all the romancing you get so I am happy you sorted out the complication.  Fiona I am so glad you had a good time at the Rod Stewart concert and that your friends were there for your tears.  Judi - the packing will wait as I am sure it will get done in time and when you feel like it.  None of us relax enough.   2 days ago I promised I was going to go to my room at 10 and be in bed by 11 - that lasted a long time didn't it.  So...goodnight to anyone I haven't mentioned and goodnight to everyone I have.  Take care.  Ailsa xxx