My husband died in my arms on the 2nd May (2009) - what happens now?

teri

love from Sue and Napoleon xx

Hello Everyone

Not posted for a while (have retreated into my shell for a bit at the moment) but read your posts every day… I’ve been on a bit of a downward slide since my wedding anniversary. Thought it might of started to pass by now but am struggling a bit really.

Went to my friends very posh 40^th birthday bash on Saturday – thanks for your  FB comments about the photo of H and me, we felt a bit like dog’s dinners but it was a black tie affair so no choice!

Funny Ailsa, but I have felt for a while that my ‘couple’ friends have been drifting away, and Saturday night confirmed it. Although there were several sets of our friends there, I was relegated to spending the night at the ‘singles’ table – mostly with people I barely even know. I got the obligatory ‘hello’s when we arrived, but no-one made space for us in their group. In fact, most of them spent the night actively avoiding us. I thought I was being paranoid, but my lovely friend Sam who was with me as her partner is in Iraq at the moment noticed it too. It hurts when we have all been together for years and they are people we spent so much time with… Ho hum, what can you do… More penguin meets I say!

Teri I hope you have a nice birthday and that you are being spoiled, and that everyone else is having the best days they can.

Much love, Manda. xx

Teri I hope you have the best birthday you can x x x ((((hugs)))))

Manda, I know you are having a diffucult time at the moment and I am truly amazed at how well you 'appear' to be dealing with your situation.  I am appalled that so called friends are not being entirely supportive. I only hope they never have to experience such a situation and feel the way you feel right now. It never fails to amaze me how insensitive some people can be (maybe not intetionally). I hope you soon start to feel alittle better within yourself. (((((((hugs))))))))).  I think you need to enter the centre of the huddle and take advantage of the warmth and friendship of the penguin community.

Sue, work your socks off so you can leave work early x x x x

Enjoy your day everyone.

Love and angel hugs x x x Patricia x x x

Afternoon all - and what a miserable overcast one it is too!!  But I feel cheerful and have plenty of (((((((hugs))))))) to give.........

So first a very special birthday (((((hug))))) for Teri - hope you've enjoyed yourself (well as best you can)? xxx

Manda - I think you too need a special (((((hug))))) - just because it's horrible being on your own at a party (even if with a group of other folks) xxx

Sue - your special (((((hug))))) is for being a good friend and putting up with a lot from me - and also because of what you are going through right now xxx

Patricia - your (((((hug))))) is for always offering of yourself to others and not looking for anything for YOU - time out buddy and have some special attention for once xxx

Rosemary, Judi, Lynne, Ailsa, Lesley, Gayle - oh help have I missed anyone?  If so I'm sorry - but here are your special ((((hugs)))).....just because.................xxx

Dot xxxxxxxxxx

First of all i'll send a big appology to Bren , whilst sorting the names for my card on sunday i some how got it in my head that Brens husband was called Steve ,and so i included 2 Steves (Rosemarys) but i now know his name is Dan , so so sorry Bren  . and i also spelt Dave's Nic's name wrong sorry Dave i can only blame blond hair and mush for brains xxx

 Big Hug to Amanda , hang on in there hun your doing great and yes i think we've all been at a party with people who just dont get it do they ? . yes more meets please , are you up to organising another manchester one , i heard you did a fab job of the last one xxx 

Ailsa , glad your feeling beeter about the work now , i'm sure it will all be worth it in the end . I'm just going to do a little stripping in the kitchen when i've finished this .xx

Judi you know i've got to do the "pose " now , i've evn got the girls doing it too , i think it will be famous one day lol . As for us all being busy with social lives it's not always like that , sometimes i feel a billy no mates if theres something i  want to do but got no body to do it with , i usually call on my daughter and she is usually a willing partner lol . xx Sue i hope you've got plenty of work done today and Glad your feeling good Dottee xx Hugs to all xxxxxxx

Just one question, Lynne -  is it warm enough to be stripping in the kitchen?????

Evening everyone!!

Ha ha Sue!! No Lynne it is far too chilly for strippping in the kitchen tonight lol!!!

Amanda big hugs, people just dont understand do they? Your real friends will always be there and I think you should organise another Manchester meet, maybe August? before our London one. So easy for lots of us xxx

Sue glad your head is being helpful, get sorted and get finished!! Sounds good to me x

I ve finished my application form so will hand that in tomorrow. Only 7 more get ups for me too!!

Raining and cold here tonight, think I might try and watch a dvd that a friend has lent me, still find it hard to settle and watch tv or a film but will try tonight.

Have a good evening everyone

Helen xxx

Stop distracting me Sue with your pictures lol . if i keep moving i'm fine lol.. And here' a annoucement i'm going jogging on the park acrross the road (well i am when it stops raining_) xxxx

Your making me laugh Sue , and its not good whilst balancing on a ladder lol xxx