My husband died in my arms on the 2nd May (2009) - what happens now?

oh kaz!
Your doc obviously thinks you're not ready and i know you're p****d off about not being able to go back to work - when do you return to the doc?

I will see her next week..
I have opened the choc biscuits...Hows your teeth today hon xxxx

Fine, thanks - I was just after a bit of sympathy.
Had my new front door fitted today and it's fab - i'm so thrilled with it. How sad to get so excited about a door.
still hasn't stopped raining - tipping down all day. poor dogs are desperate to go out; i shall have to gird up my loins at some point and get the wellies on and take them out.

How are you now?

Afternoon people , well i've survived my 3 rd day , it was n't to bad














There was even one or two funny incidents , like when control asked me over the radio to fetch in a man i knew to be an ampetee (no legs ). i said i couldn't fetch him on my own , but control told me he was mobile now , well all the other ambulances can only hear 1 side of the conversation and all they heard me say was "why has he got legs now " . My phone never stopped beeping "who's got legs " i would have loved to have relayed that story to my man , he might not have found it funny but i think you had to be there , and it put a smile on my face .
Sorry your not going back to work Kaz , but were all diferent aand i could have a c**p one tommorow . Everybody says its like being on a roller coaster and there right .
Hope everybody is ok

Take care
Lynne xx

well done, Lynne
love the story about the amputee!
there's humour in most jobs - we have some hilarious moments at school.
still raining with you?hasn't stopped here - am thoroughly p'd off!
alice just got back from her playscheme after another fab day - shame she doesn't get paid for it!!
sue x

Go for a walk in the rain lazy bones!
I am dog sitting on Friday, my daughter is going away for a couple of days and guess who gets the two little doggies yes me!!!! kaz x

want two more? 2 labradors the size of shetland ponies? don't take much work - just feeding and walking and lots of love!

yes its raining here never stopped .

You`re all showing off with these pics!!! Yeah I was right clicking on the mouse ????

Never mind!! Sorry you`re not going back to work Kaz, good job that isn`t what I was going to the dr`s for cause I burst into tears too!

Lynne glad your day gave you a laugh!!

Helen xxx

Hi all,

Sorry not posted for a wee while but had a bad few days. Nothing complicated just really missing Wully. It started on Friday night and descended from then. I was doing really well but was waiting for it to hit again. I hadn't been feeling great either for a few days which isn't helping as usually your other half is there with tea and sympathy. A bit better today although had to take wee one to drs for his MMR and had to wait 30 minutes which wasn't pleasant as don't really like being in that environment. Had my first viewers for the house and just told them I had lost my husband when they asked where are you moving to etc. It was a bit awkward and then the boys were playing around next to us and the youngest was playing make believe and was calling his brother daddy which they do (and did before Wully died), its just a game but the couple looked really awkward as I think they were reading something deeper into it. Kids! My eldest (who is 4) has decided he wants a baby and was asking why I don't have a baby in my tummy so I had to explain I didn't have a boyfriend and of course he now thinks he is my boyfriend! I think my health visitor would maybe have a few questions about that lol!

Busy week this week, I think the problem last weekend was that I hadn't planned anything so we are going to a big kids day event on Saturday in Glasgow and soft play on Friday and then my mums on Sunday so that should keep us busy and keep nasty thoughts at bay. We are going on holiday in a couple of weeks time too Helen and I am both dreading it and looking forward to it. We are going to France and Disneyland Paris for a couple of days. I think over cheery mice might get a bit annoying so watch out for the papers for mad mother punching Mickey on the nose lol!

Take care everyone.

Gayle x