My husband died in my arms on the 2nd May (2009) - what happens now?

Evening everyone (or morning!),

Just a quick post as I think it is bedtime for me!  I had a fantastic weekend seeing all the penguins and I think we all had a good giggle.  Like everyone has said to have met such amazing friends through such tragedy keeps me going.  Lynne, you did do a fantastic job!  You were a busy bee all day and it was such a good turnout and a great sum of money raised.  We were lucky it was so lovely and Fiona and I both felt like we were on holiday with the fantastic weather and even did some sightseeing and shopping on the Saturday morning.  I got home about 6.30 and the drive home was fine.  We were talking about our next meet perhaps being in London as trains or planes are so accessible now and for Fiona and I it is actually very cheap to fly to London from our local airport so I will put a post on POA tomorrow and start seeing when everyone (hopefully!) is available and we can start looking at making it a definite.

Well Im off to bed after a very lovely but tiring weekend.  Sending you all love and hugs (sorry Im not mentioning you all by name but the brain is now officially frazzled!).

Night

Gayle xxx

    For Sue who has had a rough weekend xxxx

Thanks, lynne, and thanks to all my other fellow penguins who have sent messages.  i thought that the second time round was supposed to be easier!

No my darling - sadly not easier at all.  I think it is because second time round is when you know it really is forever.  Huge and loving hugs coming south as fast as the wind can bring them. (((( ))))

All my love Judes xx

Aaah, big hugs Sue xxxxx So sorry you ve had a tough weekend with it all xx No rules to any of this xx

Glad everyone got home safely from our penguin meet. Lynne well done again!!!!! You were so busy and had so many fantastic friend s and family helping. Great weekend, really enjoyed seeing you all again and crazy to think it is only 2nd and 3rd time we have met xxx Where would we all have been without this thread xxx

Look forward to out next meet, will check POA out x

Been packing with Nat tonight, she is off to Spain with her friend and friend`s family tomorrow night for a week. She is so excited xx Liam has finished all his exams now too so he is working most days. Looking forward to pay day!!

Hope everyone has had a good Monday

Big hugs

Helen xxx

Evening All,   Well i ahd a fab weekend at Lynne's, well done to you Lynne you raised loads of money  i also have to thank Gayle for giving me a lift. Gayle i hope all the housework done today and you are now ready for your adventure this weekend hope you enjoy youeself. It was so nice to meet up with you all again. I think we have left the good weather down with you Lynne as not been nice here today. Judi i forgot to say to you congratulations from one granny to another. Patricia congratulations to you aswell a wee baby at the end of the year, it has made such a differance to me having Charlie around had him in today he is zooming about in his baby walker now nothing safe.  Not got caught    with all the post yet but i will. Bud is sleeping just now so i am getting peace to write this post but i am sure he will come alive at bedtime again. Sending everyone big hugs. Fiona xxxxxxxxxxx 

Hi everyone.  Sorry the weekend was so tough Sue.  Judi is right though - I think I said once before that we expect too much of ourselves the longer this goes on, thinking we should find anniversaries easier and then being shocked when they are not.  I hope that you are maybe feeling a little better today.  Take care xx

I'm glad you all got home safely from Lynne's.  It was lovely to see some penguins again.  Lynne I was thinking about your dad and remembering giving him a wave on Saturday.  He seemed to be making a big effort and it was lovely to see im.  Fiona I hope your dad is doing okay as well.  I will be keeping an eye on POA for some plans to meet up again.

It is organised chaos in my house now.  Becky & Declan are moved in.  I had yesterday off while Becky got settled at her new desk.  Today Becky had the day off to take Declan to his new school.  It was their sports day so I took the afternoon off to go and watch and learn my way around for picking him up etc.  I've been to the after-school club and met the childminder.  Declan is shattered now so he will be off to bed to watch a film until he drops off soon.  It is lovely having them here.  It should be for about 3 - 4 months and then they will have a place of their own.

I hope everyone is okay this evening.  Fiona we still have lovely weather here and I am hoping it will last till the weekend so that we can do some house hunting.  Helen it sounds like Nat wil be having a good time on holiday.  I think I need to tackle a pile of ironing so I might be back on again in a while to see how everyone is.  Take care.  Ailsa xxx

Hi everyone,well it never rains but it pours . Ailsa when dad waved at you sat the old dad would have been down to say hello to everybody , he was crying in the kitchen after and my sis fetched one of my mums old friend to talk to him , he kept saying he'd had enough , he just feels so dam crappy and in pain all the time . Last night about half nine my brother phoned sis to say dad wasn't well and he wanted us up there , well we went to see him and to tell you the truth we panicked and sent for a ambulance , i thought he was having a silent heart attack , which he'd had after his big op , when the paramedics came the monitors showed that his blood presure was up and his heart rate erratic , they took him to A and  E where they took bloods and assesed him there , but we could see he'd improved whilst we'd been there and all his tests came back ok , so we got home about 1 in the morning . His gp came to see him today and said it was the anti biotics thats making him feel so bad and that he's depressed too (which he's not having any of ) So to say we're all fed up is a understatment . Hopefullly he'll start picking up a little now he's finished the anti biotics . I've been like a zombie today and its my wedding anniversary ,we've had more apart now than we had together , down in the dumps but i'm going to crawl out of it . Love and hugs .. Sue i hope your ok hun , your very quiet xx Take care Lyynne xxxx

Special angel hugs to all who need them especially Lynne and Sue x x x

Hi everyone,

Lynne so sorry to hear about your dad.  Its so heartbreaking and must be very frustrating for you and the family as there is nothing you can do to help.  Hopefully the pallative care will kick in soon and help.

Ailsa, glad you are enjoying having the family home and got to the sports day okay. 

Hope everyone else is doing as okay as they can be.  Patricia - you okay??  Sue, sending you hugs.

I am just off to post on FB re the meets so hopefully we can get something to look forward to.

Ive got my usual busy week.  I was supposed to be having a friend over for a couple of days this week but it is postponed to next week as he needs to work away from home longer but I´m kind of glad in a way lol.  Back home from work tomorrow, working from home Thursday, then off to T in the Park on Friday for the weekend!!  Cant wait although not looking forward to camping in the rain!

Take care everyone.

Gayle xxx