My husband died in my arms on the 2nd May (2009) - what happens now?

Just wanted to send some quick hugs to Lynne and Patricia, hope you are getting some rest hun.  Last day of school and I am totally exhausted already!  Today will be a blur of people and tomorrow, maybe I can play catch up.  Hugs for any one who needs one.

Hello everyone,

It is so hot here today - in fact just too hot!!  Im working in the office today and it is sweltering. I can´t wait to get home and get a shower but that wont be for a few hours.  Work is a nightmare (again lol!!!).  Lynne, glad the kitchen is moving on and giving you a good distraction but listen to Rosemary - thats good advise.  Patricia, I hope you got some sleep.  Rosemary, that spider sounds major scary and I don´t know how you could have left it!  Now you don´t know where it is and I would be terrified lol.  I actually slept last night although only got 6 hours but shouldn´t complain.  I could have slept in today too but typical its the one day I need to get up and go to the office.  The heat definitely isn´t helping at night and I love having the windows open but then all the bugs come in and that stops me sleeping - can´t win!

I wondered who my new friend Dot was on Facebook lol.  I can be such a bimbo at times and never even clicked.  Welcome to FB Dot :-) 

Right I better get back to work or I´ll never get home tonight.  Hugs to everyone.

Gayle xxx

Hi everyone.  Gayle it is really hot here again as well.  We had a lot of rain last night but hot & muggy through the day.  It is making the garden look lovely though - everything is growing and flowering.  Patricia I am so sorry to hear about the little girl losing her fight.  I am sure her family were very happy for your support.  I think you are doing the right thing getting the car sorted before some long journeys - they are a necessary evil when it comes to repairs.  My car is having a service on Thursday.  Like Lynne - I don't do cars, that was not my job!!  Knowing that, my lovely dad has booked his mechanic to service the car at his house.  I already know my reversing lights and windscreen washers are not working so it already sounds like it won't be cheap - hey ho!

Lynne, Patricia, Gayle & Rosemary all struggling to sleep - I hope that gets better for you all very soon.  Lynne you be careful as you have a very busy week.  Rosemary is right that it washes over you whether you let it in or not.  I am struggling with missing Chris this week for some reason and I could feel it getting to me.  I am tking Thursday off as a holiday to do some jobs before Becky & Declan arrive at the weekend.  I think the day off in the week will mean I am well able to enjoy myself at yours Lynne on Saturday.  Good luck with the kitshen Lynne.  My builder tells me he will start my work by the end of next week - fingers crossed.

Gayle, Rosemary you both need me nearby to deal with your spiders.  I am not bothered by them at all so have to catch all the spiders, wasps & bees at work and home for other people.  I can't kill them though as I used to have a tarantula called Edwina.  We had her for years.  Chris used to take her into schools for the children to see and she was also used by an aversion therapist to help people with spider phobias.

Dot it is great to see you on facebook.  It would be lovely if Alan was up to a ride out at the weekend.  Bren I am so glad your last day at school is finally here.  I hope you can get some rest now.

I'm having a bit of a catchup evening tonight so I might pop on again later to see how everyone is doing.  Take care everyone.  Ailsa xx

Hi eevryone and thank you for the texts , i am still waiting for the big bang but i think i've been so busy i dont have time for a melt down , i am going to try and get a early night tonight . Dottee , well done on putting up with all the mess and unfortunately the kitchen is just phase 1 of the house renavation , re wiring is the next so that where most of the mess will come from , but at least i can do it in my own time and if it gets to much i will stop for a while as there is still a number of things i want to do . I'M really looking forward to sat and just hopw the nce weather holds up .. I will make this a short one as still have a few things to do before i can hit my bed . Love to all xx Take care Lynne xxxxxxxxx

Evening everyone

Lynne so glad you `re keeping swimming!!!!!! Been thinking of you xxxx

I too wondered who Dot was at first on facebook then clicked lol xxx

I am soo tired tonight so off to bed when I get off here, had a  busy weekend then out last night with my friend. Cant take the pace and a busy weekend to come!! Cant wait, out Friday then travelling to sunny Chesterfield on Saturday xx

Ailsa sorry to hear you were un settled Suday night, football didnt help either.

Night and bug higs to you all, catch up more tomorrow. Too tired tonight

Helen xxxx

Evening Everyone,  Just a short post as i am shattered just in from dad's and still got flowers to water, been really hot here today after the rain last night. Lynne sending you big hugs and i am so looking forward to seeing you on Sat. Keep swimming as Helen says. Dad off to the day hospital tomorrow so see how he gets on. He is not keen on going but he really needs help as he is so unsteady on his feet. My sister back on Fri night so i will not see her to Sunday. Bud doing great he is into everything trying to climb the curtains now. Sending everyone big hugs. Fiona xxxxxxxxxxxx   

Hi everyone

Special hugs to Fiona and Lynne's dads from up here...... where it is obviously not quite as warm as the rest of you are experiencing .... I have taken of one layer of vests though, so that must be good.

Lynne my sweetheart, you are doing so well and just concentrate on seeing all your friends on Saturday, loads and loads of squeezy, squishy hugs coming your way the next couple of days.  You will be walking round a corner or something adn suddenly an invisible hug will envelope you, ... it's me!.  And yes it will all be worth while when the house is just as you want it. 

Well at 3.30 this morning I became Nana Judes for the third time, Ed's elder daughter had a little girl, no name yet.  She was two weeks early, but compared to the boys that is very tardy, both of them arrived a full month before they were due ... unless of course their mum is VERY bad at Maths!  Mummy and baby home by 1pm, no name yet but a whole lot of pink stuff!

The housey stuff is still onging, at the moment I am being humoured as I wish to accept an offer that has been made when everyone else (apart from my dad who 'gets where I am coming from' oddly enough)  thinks I should refuse and hold out for more.  But now that my head has made this decision I think I would find it easier to know that it is sold and then I can start looking again.  I can deal with certainties much better than maybes I think. 

Owing to very late night - down to Princess Pink - and an early morning I am quite pooped tonight so will turn in early, that is if Joey allows me to. 

I am reading about you all every day and with you every step of the way, just a bit wound up and am finding that neither my brain cell nor my fingers are working on the keyboard quite at optium speed.  Normal service will resume soon.

Loads of love - Judes xxx

Dear Judes

I was just about to sign off for the night but saw your post and felt I ought to stop by and send you a special (((((hug))))) to comfort you.....You do so much to encourage us all but you also need some of our strength and encouragement to keep on going...........

Congratulations on becoming a Grannie again............lots of fluffy pink ((((hugs)))) to your little Princess............

My love and lots more (((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))) for you

Dot xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Morning all . Just wanted to send a pink hug too to Judes , another little bambino fabulous xxx Well sleep alluded me again (i did go to bed Ailsa when i tol you i was 0but i was up again a hour later . Oh well it seems most of us was exhausted last night , must be a penguin thing . My lead boots seem to have gone on but the life buoy that Patricia sent along with the hugs fron Gayle are keeping me afloat xx I knnow everone is with me and i also know its "special days" for aa few otheres at the weekend too (Colin and Alans birthdays ) so i'm send hugs to Lesley and Sue too xx Take care all Hugs to all my penguin friends xxxxxxxx

Morning all

Sending you all - especially Judi, Lynne, Lesley and Sue - ((((((hugs)))))) this morning to set you up for the day.  Keep swimming - your will to survive is stronger than the tide you're swimming against..............You'll all get there and I'll be here cheering you all on................

Love and even more comforting ((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))

Dot xxxxxxxxxxxxx