My husband died in my arms on the 2nd May (2009) - what happens now?

Oh look I posted a pic ;-) xx

Ailsa, I know I will be thinking of you at 0127 xxx

((((((hugs)))))  to you too Dorothy x x

Helen, you are trying so hard to cope so well done to you. I hope the memorial evening goes well for you.

Gayle, you live such a frantic and busy life it is a wonder you even have time to breathe.Oh and stop being a show off posting pictures. I can only post them when I use someone else's computer so I am surmising it is my firewall which prevents me from doing so.

Don't drink too much tonight ladies and Dave.

Love and angel hugs x x x Patricia x x x

Woa woa woa , i turm my back for 2 mins (well go and get another baileys ) and llok what happens lol , Rosemary you cant blame me for luring you into the baileys bottle , your so easaly led lol .. Sue your napolian had me laughing out loud amd Gayle i look forward to the next instalment , please xxx

I still cant do pictures!!!

Dont know where the tears have come from tonight, I was fine an hour ago lol!! Too much thinking, oh well need to come out I suppose.

Gayle very true words, we are all doing as best we can and making our loved ones proud, well hopefully lol!!

Bug higs again xx Wine anyone? lol or Rosemary has the Baileys!!

Helen xx

Ah Helen , bug higs to you too , xx I've sent you all a friend request from my friend Ellen (who lost her husband last week ) i hope you dont mind my lovely friends xxxxx

As fast as I am reading you guys are typing and I can't keep up!  Rosemary every single word you wrote made complete sense to me (as they always seem to - do you think you and I are actually the same, only have a ride on mower!!)  Second year ..... ah yes.  My mum told me that years ago the first year widows wore black and the second year they wore purple - as if to say "Yes, I maybe out of black but I am still in a very precarious positiont" - makes sense to me.  I definitely still have bouts of desparate sadness (as you guys know cos you see me through them) but when I come out of them I remain stronger for longer.  So that must be good.   Ailsa, with you all the way hun.  And Helen special hugs for you as Wednesday/Thursday comes round.  I am glad that you are able to remember that you had a busy last weekend, I know it won't help right now but what a trooper Paul was heh? 

Gayle and I are meeting on Monday, Gayle and I are meeting on Monday, Gayle and I are meeting on Monday ...... well if saying things three times worked for Judy Garland in the Wizzard of Oz it might work for us!

Rosemary if you have drunk all the Baileys I will be mightn mad ... just stepping out on the ledge as we speak with an empty glass and ......... a Marks and Sparks cake mix chocolate cake that I made ... yes your heard right.  I whisked and beat and then topped with mini Lindor chocolate eggs if anyone wants a slice! 

This penguin will be tidying, sorting, throwing away clothes she can no longer fit in to, possibly painting and generally getting a grip.  So Napoleon, you precious little thing, if Sue will let you and you are handy with a paint brush you can share the dogs bedroom for the night if you like. 

Much love to all till later, Judes xxxx

Love to all you

Dear auntie judes,

i should be very happy to sleep with your dogs. At home i am often in the doghouse.

My human also has 'cats' - hmph!!! They try to catch me for their supper, but i am too speedy for them.

as i am a penguin of noble heritage, i shall unfortunately have to decline the offer to decorate your bathroom. However, my cousin Vincent van Penguin and I should be delighted to create a muriel on your bathroom wall.

i am ready to come to your humble abode.

i will bring my own fish.

Napoleon xx

Nappleon, you are fab lol xxx

Love vincent van penguin ha ha xxx

Oh I have always wanted a Muriel - so just you come on up.  The dogs are partial to a bit of tuna, will that do? No need to stop with just the bathroom though, feel free to do the whole house!  Just off to fish Boy's old paddling pool out of the garage to make my new house guests feel at home. xx

Ladies you really need to put the glasses down or I will have to phone for help...

I am sitting here all angelic with a cup of tea!

oh look another picture :-)