My husband died in my arms on the 2nd May (2009) - what happens now?

Lesley hope Catface is ok xxx

I ll be glad when this weekend is over too, know how you feel xxx

Once again your group sounds great, very practical advice. Yes we all need to move on and like you say it could be a challenge and something to look forward to but so diificult too with the hurt and emotions involved. I dont know the answers but I know I dont want to be on my own and miss the company. It is lonely and we dont need to be lonely for ever, we re all only young so perhaps that is the next lot of support and advice we need to help each other with. The next stage maybe xx

Anyway I m off the the hairdressers at lunch time and then going to a party at a friends tonight.

Have a good day everyone

Helen xxx

Hi all ..

Helen hope you have a good time at your party , i can see your post tommorow lol ...... Never again ...... Ha ha i said that last week but i didn't go mad last night , i just enjoyed being out with all the kids , its not very often it happens so it was a real treat . I also know what you and Lesley mean about being on your own , i hate it but cant see me with no one else , besides no body would put up with me and my falling over lol ...  Lesley i hope cat face is ok and you managed to find a vet that was open .. i;ll Pm you about my plans on where i want to move too , i'm on plan F now i think .. Ailsa i hope you manage to put your cunning plan into action to see Rosemary , these meets are always a boost to us all .. Its going to be a tough week for dad (and us) as he has his op tues which there not sure how succesful it will be but he has to have it and its mums second anniversary on fri , so going to keep as busy as i can ..

Today i'm going to try and pack a set of Gordons drums away , there in the little bedroom and i need to sort it out if i'm to get it looking like a bedroom and not a music room . I'm not looking forward toit but its got to be done ... Judi i'm sending big big hugs to you as i know your going throughb a rough time at the moment .. Remeber what i said yesterday xxxx Any way i'm off to see if i can do what i've got to do  .. Hugs to everbody xxxxx

Thanks Lynne, I m hoping not to be rough tomorrow!! Famous last words lol!!

I will be thinking about you and your dad next week, hope the op goes ok and you get through the anniversary xxx

I am sure someone will love you one day for your falling over and the `North` pose as we all do xxx Dont be so hard on yourself lol xxx

Hope you get your jobs done today, I m just going to go and cut the grass. It is gorgeous here!! Just bought Paul some roses for Easter, sure he ll be thrilled lol!! not been for a while so got the urge this weekend xx

Judi bug higs from me too (((())))) Thinking of you xx

Anyway hope you all have a good Saturday night, speak later

Helen xxx

Evening all, how have you been?  Lynne did the drum packing go alright?  I can imagine it wasn't easy there are still so many of Steve's things around (how many aeroplane models did he buy?) I have put some things away but I almost feel guilty as if I'm getting rid of him if I put them all away, which is silly as I know I'm not and if other people think that then that's their problem.  Any how I did think of you this afternoon and was hoping it wasn't too hard. 

Ailsa.... the cunning plan?  You now have us all in suspense. 

Patricia your updates are wonderful, you sound as though you are having a good time, tiring but memorable.  Thinking of you lots, I say as the sun rises but the rain and clouds tend to obscure it a bit here at the moment, but definitely thinking of you lots!

Been busy in the garden today, I bought a peony for Steve's garden and I weeded a few bits out and tidied up a bit, but can't find my spade to plant the peony (Daniel???) so will have to do that another day.  Also had a go at sorting out the flat tyre on my lawn mower, another thing Daniel said he would do for me, it's been waiting since last October.  I managed to pump it up using small, quite worn out foot pump which I had to hold together with one hand and pump with the other (yes it was meant to be a foot pump).  Where the tyre had been flat for so long it was creased and took ages to inflate to any reasonable level.  Daniel came home when I was half way through and said he was just dashing in to clean his teeth and change (he slept in him mobile home last night, he's moving back there), I told him what I was doing and about 20 minutes later he came out, looked at it, asked what I had used and said why didn't I wait til tomorrow when he could have a look and he'd mow the lawn then too.  We wait with baited breath (and I hope he doesn't actually mow it as the ground is too wet).  Had a look at my runner beans, sweet peas, sunflowers and stocks and they are all beginning to pop up now, ooh and a couple of pumpkins because my sister does amazing carvings for halloween (if you look via my Facebook page at Maxine Field's photo's you should find some of them), so the allottment should be doing well again this year, we also have 12 tomato plants from a friend and the tatties should be going in soon.  How productive is all that?

Might take the dogs for a good long walk tomorrow if the weather stays dry (sorry you northerners it looked dodgy your way) and then Monday we have been invited over to my family for lunch, not forgetting morning and evening we have to go and do Sam's horse.  Talking of Sam I bought a Mother of the Bride suit from ebay today to see if I like the Condici style and fit, it even has a hat with it Judi!!!!!  It was only £26.00 and over £300 new so unless I really like it I will sell it on again, don't think I will use it for THE wedding but you never know. Did I tell you she's buying the house?  Her offer was accepted.

Off to make some coffee now, maybe a drop of Baileys would be in order do you think?  It's a bit quiet on here tonight, hope you are all ok and just being sociable with family and friends, if any of you aren't then join me with the coffee and Baileys (I have a couple of bottles in) all are welcome (I did say you could all come and live didn't I?  Just imagine the all night 'counselling' sessions we could have, the world would be put to rights good and proper)  Talking of which, glad your counselling is going well Ailsa, sounds like you have a good lady there, I think I might need something too but I'm no good at talking out loud about my feelings, that's why you get me rambling on on here.  Anyway, night night penguins, sleep well hugs to you all xxxxxx

Dear rosemary

I have read your post and am now totally exhausted.

Slow down a bit, hun, you'll wear yourself out.

Sue xx

Ah Rosemary i have a baileys in my hand as we speak , no coffee tho  , just ice mmm its lovely , i have earnt it today . I did get the drums moved and if i'm brave they will go on e bay later , i'm stalling on that one , but i cant keep 3 sets of drums so i'm selling the electronic ones as the other 2 sets are packed away . I also had a eletric piano to put away 9Gordon bought it me last christmsas thinking i'd enjoy learning how to play it ) i never really went on it and it did upset me as it was the last christmas gift from him ,i cant see me selling that .. Youve been busy today too i see , so glad the offer was accepted , thats a stress full time for you all . Just going to fill my glass xxxxx

:-))))) sorry Sue, I do sound a bit frantic don't I?  Love my penguin though xxxxx

Sorry Lynne I missed you, will refill the glass now xxxxxxx

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Hi all

Not a bad day today. although wish we were having some of your sun Helen! It has rained on and off. Catface is being tested for ringworm but the vet said she thought it was more likely that he has had his nose stuck in something he shouldn't outside and it has irritated the skin, so now have a special skin wash and am £42 lighter, ho hum!

Rosemary, glad to hear that Sam's offer on the house was expected, everything seems to be moving really quickly, when is she getting married?

Lynne, out of all of us, you are the one I could see having no problem meeting someone. You are such a warm, bubbly and outgoing person and so easy to get along with. anyone would be glad to have you as a companion.

Helen, hope you have a lovely evening at your friends.

Gayle hope you are OK too, saw your FB status, rough as in hangover, ill or fed-up?

Hope everyone I have not mentioned is OK, even though I don't always post I think about you all the time. Hugs Lesley x