My husband died in my arms on the 2nd May (2009) - what happens now?

PS - I now possess a meerkat!!!  I've called him Mervin and he sits proudly on my sideboard regally surveying his surroundings!!!!!! xxx

PPS - he's actually a cuddly toy we found on one of our jaunts to far flung Nottingham!!!!!! xxxxxxxxx

Oh Dot, you do make me smile x x x  I hope that your Meercat appreciates the love you will shower upon him. But why pray tell have you not got a penguin???

I do hope that you and Alan are managing to keep yourselves sane. It is a very rocky road you are travelling and I would love to hear that is has become a little smoother. Be kind to yourself dear lady and remember there is always a place for you in the centrem of this huddle should you need to be there.

Love and angel hugs x x x Patricia x x x

Evening everyone - and less of your cheek Dottee!!!!  Sacred I said, scared!!!!! lol.  That Lynne has a lot to answer for, one little typo and I am getting a name for high-handedness!

Rosemary darling - enjoy the bits that make you smile - the dress, Samantha's excitedness, the organising and fluster ....... and as for the rest my darling - you will just keep that sad little smile inside you that says "I remember all that, I remember feeling we have everything ahead of us"  but cos you are her mum and you love her so much, inside is where it will stay.  OF COURSE Wayne is the one for her, there is no doubt that Daniel will suddenly become the most perfect and reliable of sons (but then you will want the annoying one back!!) as for those wonderful dogs of yours ..... well I bet most of the daft behaviour makes you laugh when you tell it back to others, so they are just trying to help.  However, when it comes to your back,  that I am not too sure about so I will just recommend pampering and a lot of care.   Stand up straight and tall ........ you will have to get used to doing that cos you ain't going to believe the size of hat I am going to recommend for you!!

Patricia hun, I thought that Stuart's wedding was this weekend - so my little three (or is it four now!) outfitted penguin, you have the best day that you can. 

Am hoping to see Gayle for coffee on Wednesday (flippers crossed).   Well, I am all adviced out now so I will say ta ta for now.   Simples xxxxx  (that was for Marvin)  love Judi xxxxx

Darn it Judi, I should have thought of that 'simples' remark grrrr..... 

Yes the wedding is this weekend and since I saw you I havebought  two (yes two) new handbags and the 3 fascinators. Got a bit carried away. My wedding speech is also written and I ran it by a friend who seems to think it is ok so it's all systems go.

Anyway your 'sacred Highness' don't let your flippers flap too much.

Love and angel hugs x x x Patricia x x x

p.s. The meerkat is called MERVIN lol

Hi Everyone,   Just catching up in all the posts, hope everyone is doing ok, i seem to have been so busy the last few days i have not had the time to post, i done the walk for sports relief on Sun it was good but not nice weather. Been off work today so work the rest of the week hopefully it will pick up for Easter and there will be a few people about. Kim and Charlie been in and we have just been to cemmy to put on some fresh flowwers. Darren still working at the moment so at least he is making some money. I have a friend in tonight for a wee while so passes the night, hopefully get out walking soon when clock changes. Well i better get tea on for Darren coming in makes a differance when you are cooking for someone and not just for one. Got my wedding anniversary coming up on Mon we would have been married 30 yrs. Love and Hugs to you all. Fiona xxxxxxxxxxxx  

Hi everyone xxx

Judi too SACRED to post.....we are not worthy lol xxxx

Rosemary big hugs, we are all going to have these moments aren`t we? Should be happy times but always that special one missing xxx I got married without my lovely dad to give me away but my mum  made it sooo special as I know you will too xxx

Well I over indulged at the weekend hence my lack of posting!! Had a great weekend though, just suffered yesterday. Liverpool lost on Sunday but had a good afternoon with friends x

I have tried to be good again and been back to the gym tonight!

Had meeting with friends last night re Paul`s fundraising night, tickets selling well, looking like being a full house.

Well only 3 more get ups then off for 2 weeks, cant wait!!!!

Hope everyone has had a good day

Helen xxx

You lot are so lovely!  Thank you for your kind words, texts and a very specail phone call too (sorry I couldn;t talk longer and Sam was around too, but I hope we can have a lovely long chat another time xxx).  I'm sure it's a bit of second year syndrome as well as the expected bitter sweet "it only's", it's the little things like Sam asking Daniel to give her away and just having something else to sort out without Steve.  I'll get over it and pull myself together again, it's probably hormones as well (the few I have left like to play me up occasionally).  Judi Sam tried on the most beautiful dress and has seen a gorgeous designer one (from £2500 - £4000!!!!! for goodness sake) but the lovely chinese ladies in Horsham can do a close copy for a lot, lot less so we might try that once she has tried a few on and really knows what she wants.  As for my hat Judi my love, I'm a short arse and not sure if I will look like a mushroom if the hat is too big, but of course that is entirely up to you lol xxx

Tonight I am going out! Only with a friend to an old friends but that will be nice and makes a change.  Sam has Wayne coming over and Daniel.... goodness knows what he is up to.  Oh and the purple hat lunch, I hadn't forgotten, however am doing a re-think as my original plan was to make lots of money for charity but without going REALLY big I'm not sure how to do that for a good amount.  Maybe it will be for a select few and we will just raise a little bit of money and have a good time.  Or I will put it on hold until after the wedding etc and pull out all the stops.

Patricia, hope the wedding goes well for you this weekend and everything is perfect and transports well.  What are you wearing with your two handbags?  By the way I keep meaning to ask, have you ever tried using the Angel Oracle cards?  I have been given a set and it can be quite uncanny the acurracy of the answers to some questions. 

Better go and put on some make up (only means taking it off again before bed, but must make the effort).  Hope you are all ok and have a good evening, lots of love and hugs from me xxxxxxxxxxxx

Evening girls - just dropped by to leave lots of ((((((((hugs))))))) for you all.  I think you need them and i have no words to add to what has already been said..........Patricia - I haven't found a penguin yet but I am looking for one to add to my collection...No home should be without one!!!!!

Love and more (((((((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))) to you all

Dot xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hope you all have a good week

Sue xx