My husband died in my arms on the 2nd May (2009) - what happens now?

Happy birthday Fiona x x x

Love and angel hugs x x x Patricia x x x

Happy Birthday Fiona xx

Sorry I have not been on the site I cannot find any words to describe how I am feeling

Thanks to al for your kind words

Love Teri

Happy Birthday Fiona, Have a good day.
love and (((((((((HUGS))))))))
Quill xxxx

Teri, never, ever apologise for not posting. You just do what is right for you. It is a very difficult time for you right now and it is not always easy to put your feeling down in words. So long as you know that we are here for you whenever you need us x x

Love and angel hugs x x x Patricia x x x

Hi everyone,

Just did a post and then the server went down at work grrrr - try again.

Auntie Judes I did take myself to bed as told but still tired today - early night tonight and if anyone catches me late on FB or here then you have permission to send me to bed.

Mothers Day got a bit emotional for me as I got nearer the home as because my two are so young it was always Wully that did the pressies and dinner.  When I got there the two of them were so excited to see me and had got me flowers and a card and kept giving me loads of cuddles and kisses so of course I started crying.  That then upset my mum because she could see I was struggling a bit.  We also remembered that last year when Wully was in the hospice he sent my mum a big huge bunch of flowers with a balloon to thank her for being like a mum (he hadn't done this before) as his mum had died quite a few years earlier.  It was okay though and Jamie and I had a nice talk at bedtime while he lay and stroked my hair (I nearly fell asleep lol!) - he is just so grown up.

Teri - you do whatever you feel helps.  If you want to just read along and post when you are ready or feel free to rant and rave - we will all understand as we have all had similar feelings and we are here to support you when you need us.

Take care everyone and Happy Birthday Fiona.

Gayle xx

Evening everyone

Happy Birthday Fiona, hope you ve had a lovely day xxx

Well done Gayle getting through yesterday, double emotions!!

Teri it sometimes helps just to read and see what everyone else is doing, perhaps go back to the start of the thread and see our ups and downs. Then post when you feel you want to xxx

I am still exhausted tonight lol!! Cant take the pace!! But well worth it.

Hope everyone has had a good Monday

Lots of love

Helen xxxx

Happy Birthday Fiona!  We'll have a little gathering on the legdge for you tonight, a little fire and some marshmallows to toast, but it will be early to bed for all the tired penguins and no talking til late! 

Teri ditto what the others have said, you do what you need to and talk when you want to or just stay quiet and wonder at the goings on amongst us.  Don't feel guilty about anything, that goes for on here and in day to day stuff off the internet too, get through day to day doing whatever feels right for you.  Hugs to you xxxx

Got to make some coffee and maybe a Baileys in it too, have got a really ouchy sore throat tonight - had to shout (no make that scream) to get Geordie back tonight when he chased after a mini motorbike that went down our bridlepath and shouldn't have been there, the little oik took off at speed and Geordie decided to give chase!  Scary moment, Kofi came straight back to me and leaned against my legs shaking, but Geordie is so stubborn and goes deaf when he thinks he will, just glad he is safe though, still love him to bits.  So off I go and obviously the Baileys is medicinal.... isn't it? xxx

Happy birthday Fiona !!!

Ive had a look at some of the photos from the gtg.It looks like you all had a great time.

Im pleased it went well and you all had a good time.

Thanks a lot Dave xxx

Evening all , Teri , just post when your ready hun , like the others say , in your own time xx Thanks Dave it was a super weekend , you should have come , maybe next time or we will come to you , isle of wight , no problem lol . Just a quick one as my brain isn't capable of stringing to many sentences together tonight . Hope evrybody is doing ok and caught up with some sleep

  Take care

xxx Lynnexxx

Evening everyone.  Teri I just wanted to say the same as the others.  Post as and when you are ready.  Helen is right - it might help if you read some of our early posts.  Then you will know why we say post when you are ready.  Just read along with  us in the meantime and know that we are all thinking about you and will be watching out for you when you are ready.

I am so glad I logged on here tonight - I thought it might only be me that was this tired.  Unlike some other shirkers!!! - I have been to pilates but i think I might have slept through the last exercise lol.  I think I am too tired to remember anything alse that has been posted - happy birthday again Fiona - I hope you enjoyed your lunch.  Dave you missed a wonderful weekend so the next ones on the Isle of Wight!  Sue - where do you keep finding the great pictures.  I have followed the links to look at the hats as well and think it might be about time I had a new baseball cap.

Right - I said I was going to stay awake till 10 in the hope I sleep well so good night everyone.  Gayle - I can hear everyone's voices as well.  Well done to you for coping with what sounded like a lovely if emotional mothers day.  Ailsa xxx