My husband died in my arms on the 2nd May (2009) - what happens now?

Patricia had a look at the song so appropriate its been sixteen months since  my husband paul  passed away  things are still so hard miss him so much  i keep looking on this thread and i know you are all going through the same as me when oh when  does it get easyer   paul was 57 and we had so much to look forward now every thing seems so pointless sorry if this upsets you all having a bad day   hazel

Sue, one thing I have never heard you do is whinge. What you do is offer love, advice and support to everyone else even when it is obvious how down you are feeling. Whereas I seem to do nothing but whine about my own feeling these past few days at least.  I am so glad to hear that you are coming out of the dark mist that seems to envelope everyone from time to time.

Anyway, have a good day tomorrow.

Love and angel hugs x x x patricia x x x

Hazel, welcome to the thread. Please join us if yu wish. We all have good and bad days as you can see.

So sorry for your loss. You can add me as a friend if you wish. I will respond.

\Love and angel hugs x x x Patricia x x x

Hi Hazel

So sorry to hear about Paul (((((( hugs  )))))))  to you.  You are almost exactly at the same time scale as me, sixteen months and Ed was also 57.  Please post with us, I know that sometimes it probably seems that we are a bit of a 'unit' and know each other well, but we all joined at some point, and the first few posts are quite nerve racking, as you can seem the 'newbie'.  But a more lovely, supportive group you won't find, so do join in.  I first posted in September, others are more recent, I promise it won't take long before you feel like you know us all.  Napoleon will initiate you in the ways of the Penguins. 

Lynne and Gayle, how lucky are you two.  I am so glad that you both decided to 'just go for it', March certainly can't come fast enough for me. 

Lesley, straight hair again - well done.  did you manage both sides or just do the one that was easiest with you cast!!  Personally I never worry about the back, I can't see it so why should I care!!

Manada hun, how are you?  Ailsa, so glad that you got to spend some time with Becky, but I'll bet she was even more glad. 

Much love and hugs to everyone.  Five inches of snow and still falling here!

Off to check out the yellow pages for fancy dress hire - you did say I had to come to Newcastle dressed as a penguin didn't it ...... or was I speed reading again!!!

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Judi xx

Omg Judi you are so funny x x x    I have a vision now of a penguin wearing a pink wedding hat lol

At least you would know it was me!!!!! LOL   - Hugs to you hun,  you know I am thinking of you. J xx

Evening  All,  I am pleased you have all had a good weekend, great photos Gayle and Lynne can't wait till March but having a wee giggle to myself Judi thinking of us all arriving dressed as penguins. I have had my niece's girl to stay this weekend she is 14yrs so she has been good company, but  you miss the company when they go home and you end up feeling down all over again. Kim still having a hard time just now we were at the cemmy today with flowers and we ended up having a cry, and she say's she misses her dad so much, and she wonders why us, how do you answer her. Then i end up wondering what is left in life for me, but i know i am not the only one that feels this way.  Sorry to hear about Paul Hazel, but please keep posting here as we all support one another and i couldn't have got through this nightmare without all these lovely people who i am proud to call my friends.

Luv and Hugs to you all, Fiona xxxxxxxxxxx      

Aww Fiona, so hard to make things right for our kids. I want to take all the pain and hurt away from my kids for everything that they are going through in their lives but i can't can I? I hope that Kim starts to feel a little better soon.

Judi,  think of you too and I can see you out with your pink wellies on walking the dogs. Very fetching.

Love and angel hugs x x x Patricia x x x

hey-ho, team - it's off to work we go!

I bags be Grumpy today.

sue xx

In that case I bags Dopey - suits me today I think!

Judi xx