My husband died in my arms on the 2nd May (2009) - what happens now?

Ah Sue nowif i'd got my special powers i could come and pamper you , so sorry you've been ill , hope your feeling better soon . You have the best weekend you can . Maybe Helen needs to show Lesley how to walk in the big heels lol .xxxx Take care xxxxxxxxxxx

Lesley, I hope you have a good time tonight but please don't fall off those heels.

Amanda and Sue sorry you have both been so unwell. Let us hope that you both feel better soon.

Lynne, glad to see you have taken my lessons to heart lol.

Fiona, I bet you are loving having little Charlie around. How sweet they are at that age. Nice to hear Kim is such a competent mummy.

Helen, I hope your friend finds what she is looking for in the jewellery line.

Judi, Dot, Dave, Esme, oh heck who else?? anyway have a good weekend all of you.

Difficult few days ahead for me as it is my dad's birthday(another card just from me), my wedding anniversary(would have been 35 years) and my son's birthday(first one without his dad) between now and Wednesday. Oh well, just have to deal with whatever comes at me along the way. Been feeling decidedly off colour today. seasonal illness, stress or tiredness??? who knows.

Well take care all.

Love and angel hugs x x x Patricia x x x

Evening everyone

Thanks crunchie it`s Friday!!! Had a busy day, dress rehearsal at school with my little darlings!!! They did us proud :) Even though I felt I was singing alone in front of the whole school at one stage!!

Lesley hope you enjoy your night out, like Lynne I can remember the first night out I had after Paul died....nearly came home at 10 o clock but stuck it out xx Do you want some advice on those heels??? Few drinks and you`ll be ok!!!

Lynne have a good night, you can`t say no can you!!! Good for you xxx

No ladies I have no plans for this weekend,(neighbour asked me if I fancied a drink but declined that one,he`s been quiet recently. Bless him I think he means well but he did get hard work!!)  going to do some pre xmas cleaning. Going to the gym with Nat in the morning and I `ve bought some flowers to take to Paul xx But do you know what?? I am not too worried about the prospect of a weekend in. That`s progress!! See if it lasts!

Sue so sorry you`ve been poorly, and Amanda. Our little ones at school are dropping like flies!!

What`s everyone else up to this weekend?

Helen xxx

My sky candles are here too so plesed about that

Patricia will be thinking of you xxx Your turn for a difficult few days. Why does it all come at once for us??

Hope you`re feeling better soon too

Helen xxx

Hi everyone

It seems that norovirus is doing the rounds,thats what George and Freddie had last week"not very pleasant,

Lesley enjoy your evening out!

Patricia i hope you are ok for the next few days!!

Everyone else have agood weekend xx

Thanks Dave xx

hi, dave

Hope the boys are better now.

Did you enjoy your night out?

sue x

Patricia , a big hug for you , you have always been agreat sourse of comfort to us all , so i hope we can help you in some small way to get over these next few days .All i can say is thank god we all met xxxxxx .My candles came yesterday but i wasn't in so i've got to collect them from the main post office in the morning , cant wait to see them , the video on the website where i got them from is fab . No Helen i cant say no , sometimes i want to but hey ho plenty of time to sit around through the long dark nights . I've told the kids i'm not doing lunch on sunday , you would think i'd told them i'm emigrating to australia with Brad pitt mmm not a bad idea really , but no i just wanted some time on sunday to spend with Gordon and try and tidy things up up there , i am relying on it not raining tho and i want to put some chippings down so that when i put other things on for xmas they wont all get muddy , this rain is doing my head in . I'll have to get ready now , i'll try not to drink and post later lol. Speak tommorow . Take care all xxxxxxxxxxx

Missed your post Dave , hope the boys are ok now , you have a good weekend too xxx

Hi Sue

Yer it was good to get out Tuesday.My mum had Freddie for the night and George gad asleep over at his friends.

I had agood few beers"much needed"and my team won 1-0 all in all a good night allround

I chated to one of my friends about Nic and what she would have done in a certain situation ie mum inlaw and the kids,without getting upset just talking fondly,maybe im making progress.

Thanks Dave xx

Well done Dave, you are indeed making progress so big hug for you as it feels like a scary step just doing that doesn't it?  Glad you had a good night and the boys enjoyed themselves too I expect.  M-i-L isn't trying to take over too much is she?  I know what they are like, they want to help and need to help and we need them too but they don't always seem to know when to back off, my in-laws have driven me insane over the last year and all I seem to end up doing is having to make allowances for them and their feelings.  They mean well alledgedly.

Patricia sending you a very special angel hug, wrapping you in Archangel Michaels protective cloak to keep you strong and help you through the coming days.  We will all be with you in thought and sending you love. xxxx

Evening all and love to you all too, been doing more Christmas shopping today and also started a Tesco shopping list to be delivered to our holiday cottage, it doesn't actually seem real that we will be going in three weeks, or even that Christmas is only just over three weeks away.  Also been thinking back to "this time last year" again, tomorrow is the day that Steve came home knowing he only had weeks (maybe months) to live and he wondered if he would even see Christmas.  At least this year I know he isn't in pain or frightened and all I can do is focus on my two lovely children and see them growing and healing in many ways. Yesterday I took Samantha to Brighton to see the Neuro Consultant regarding her accident and brain injury as she has been suffering a lot of tiredness ever since the accident (3 years in January) and more so since losing Steve, having swine flue and/or glandular fever etc but apparently although these things will be factors the tiredness is as we suspected a big residue of the injury still healing and could continue for many years yet.  In a way it has helped Sam to know that it wasn't "all in her head" as the horrid girl she went on holiday said, but she has agreed to some mild anti depressants to see if they can help her sleep and pick herself up a bit, so fingers crossed she feels better soon. Daniel has a chest infection - mild pluerisy (sp) but the doctor has given him anit biotics and he's booking a chest xray too.  At the moment it just feels like one thing after another, I won't start on the workshop people going bust with our deposit possibly lost and no building going up now, it was just another disaster in the catalogue of 2009.

A positive note... tomorrow is another day and I have started the Christmas cards (forgot I would still have to address them and put peoples names in and still write a short note in some, but at least they are all "signed").  The dogs are happy and sleeping and even little Dave is curled up happy tonight after a good days huntng - no rain you see. Take care everyone and have a good weekend, sleep well, I will send you all soporific thoughts xxxxxxxxzzzzzzz