My husband died in my arms on the 2nd May (2009) - what happens now?

Nice one, Lynne!!!!

or should i say, Calamity Jane?

Love you really!!

sue x

Thanks Sue xx

Good evening everyone.  I have been reading all the posts over the weekend and have made note - as is my way! - so I might stand a chance of keeping up.

Phil - hello to you and your sons.   I am so sorry that you have lost your dear wife but I want to add my support to the others.  I will be thinking about you and your family on Thursday and please post on here again.  It really does help to chat to people who know what you are having to go through and I have found that there is always someone amoung this group of friends who can say just the right thing and a whole lot more who can give the hugs we all need.

Thank you JuJuC for your message.  I really want to believe I won't always feel so awful and scared and everything else that I feel.  That I will find a way to cope and function.  Your message helps me to believe that might be possible but that it is okay for it to be in my own good time.  Good luck with all of you treatment xx

Helen - you sound to have had a fabulous weekend.  I went to see Eddie Izzard last night at Sheffield Arena.  I am not big into comics but I enjoyed it.  It is also something that Chris and I hadn't got round to doing so I didn't feel too much emotion about it.  I will have to go to some shows now won't I?

Gayle - like Helen I am up for the 27th February.  I like the sound of the Marriot.  Concentrate on your move and then we should get it booked.  I can't wait to meet a few people from here.

Judi - I thought about you often today and it sounds like you did brilliantly.  I will remember your 'happy memories exchange for sad memories' trick.  I can't remember everyone's significant dates but know Helen and I are zooming towards 6 months without Paul & Chris and I will try to do the same thing as you have.  Am I allowed to say I love Boy as well!

Sue - it is lovely to hear from you.  I missed you but it is right that we should all have things to do as well sometimes.  Maybe it is daughters that are just too absorbing!!  My eldest daughter was staying with me this weekend and if I am absolutely honest it was really only that one fact that stopped me from posting.  She is her fathers daughter and runs rings around me completely.  She is so full on (Mr all or nothing strikes again!) one minute and then just stops and does nothing al all for a bit.  I use that time to recover from the full on time and then before I have had time to relax she is on with the the next thing.  I love her to bits and I do so much when she is about but I feel like I have been hit with a bus when she leaves!!  I am glad you enjoyed the company of your daughter and d-i-l (& the grandchildren).  How is Willow?  Is your Mum enjoying her stay?

Lynne enjoy your Halloween night out on Saturday.  I will be staying home but have to confess to getting dressed up to answer the door to the trick or treaters!!  If you can't beat them - join them.  I haven't heard when the bench will be in place yet but the flagstones have been put down ready.  You've never seen anyone so excited about 2 flagstones!!

How are you Fiona?  Are you sleeping any better.  My sitting room is still a work in progress site.  I had such a busy time with Becky here that I need a couple of days to recover but I will be actually doing some painting by Friday afternoon as I don't work then.

Patricia - if you get lost round here you will have to call and see me!  I can't be far from you and I have a sat nav - not that that stops me from getting lost!

Esme - I am so proud of you for reminding your daughters 'friends' on FB.  I think we probably all know how short some people's memories are but her friends need a wake up call and I think you will have done the trick.  Well done.

Hi Dot - did you & Alan still do the walk even though Lynne couldn't?

Seems about time I stopped banging on.  Good evening everyone.  Ailsa xx

Hi All,    Phil sorry to hear about your lovely wife and i will be thinking about you and your family on Thursday it's a hard day but we all seem to get the strength from somewhere to get through the day but keep posting as it has been a god send to me it makes you realise you are not alone in this nightmare. Judi glad you have got through the day with some happy memories i am heading up to Derek's anniversay as well on the 13th Dec i am dreading it but to be honest it can't be an worse as the nightmare of year i have had. If all goes to plan i should have a grandchild to help me. Hope everybody else is doing ok like you Ailsa i need to write done when i read all the posts as my memory not good and i forget what i have read. Gayle hope you get on ok in your move, and i think that weekend ok for me although i will need to see about trains as i couldn't drive to Newc astle and thats with a sat nav. Well better get off to bed now.  Fiona xxxxxxxxxxxx

Morning ll just a uick one as i am on early this morning , i hope Phil gets back to us , Hope your ok Phil xx

Ailsa i was just the same with the flag stones , i just kept standing on them , not sure what else you could do on them really ! the bench had made such a difference , i hope its not t long before you get yours . Dottee did do the walk , she's put a account on "carrying on " i'll warn you there may be some tears shed as you read , but happy tears they did so well xx

 i t wont be lng to your anniversary so hopefully we'll all be here to help Judi seems to have the right attitude i hope i can be as strong , Hope your still ok today Judi xx

I see a  frw of us are up for the meet , i might get the train too Fiona , i drive all day everyday , so might have a rest that weekend xx

Any way morning to Sue , Helen , Esme , Judi , Quill and Dottee Dottee have a good day xxxxxxxxx

Take care Lynne xxxxxxxx

Morning all.  Up early with Lynne!  Need to be at work by 7!  Just wanted to let Judi, Phil and Amanda know I am thinking about them (((xx)))  Ailsa

Morning all - Ailsa as Lynne says there's an account of our walk on 'carrying on'...but we did it!!  Alan was the 'All Action Hero' again......He put us allegedly fitter bods to shame the way he set off.......and he did suffer a little afterwards but bore his aches and pains stoically - even refusing a slug of Oramorph!!!!!!  My knee seems to have settled down again...so we're back to 'normal' once more!!!

Judi - more comforting ((((((((((hugs)))))))))))) on their way to you...........hope they help??  Phil - I can't imagine what it's like to be in the same place as you just now.....but will send (((((hugs))))) to you too...........Lynne, Helen and everyone else on here ((((((hugs))))) for you too...........Dot xxxxxxxxxx

Congratulations Dot and Alan xxx You just made me have a memory then and a little smile! Picturing Alan slugging his oramorph. Paul used to laugh about carrying his bottle with him, so careful with it at first, measuring it exactly then when he went to the match with our son he would have a good `glug` to see him through the game, bless xxx

Ailsa glad you enjoyed Eddie, I`m not sure about him really but I have definitely got the bug to fo to another show. My brother bought me some theatre tickets which I haven`t used yet s will have to book another weekend.

Patricia and Lynne, don`t get into the car together lol!!!

I`m up early at half term!!! Got to empty the utility room for my flooring coming on Thursday. Washing machine, dishwasher, fridge and fridge freezer to move so father in law is coming to give me a hand. Dentist this affy then out for a `daughters and mums ` tea with friends, so that will be nice.

Hope everyone has a nice Tuesday

Helen xxx

Hi,

Well done to Dotee and Alan, Hope everyone is ok tonight, i have had a friend down tonight for a wee while. Been wet here today again but what do i expect it is Scotland. Judi hope you are doing ok. Helen you have been busy today hope you like your new flooring i could do with doing the same in my utility room. I started off well doing my kitchen and bedroom but i seem to have got stuck will need to get started again after baby comes. Well off to have my coffee before bed.

Take Care

Fiona xxxxxxxxxx

Judi hop eyou are ok hun. Been thinking of you today. x x x

Hope everyone else is ok. I know it has been a difficuot day for some of you.  Just a short post as I am having trouble getting the site to enter my posts on the thread.  Censorship of the harshest kind.

Love and angel hugs to you all x x patricia x x