My husband died in my arms on the 2nd May (2009) - what happens now?

Morning girls



Wow!! Lynne - you're an early bird today............but I know what you mean about too much sleep in the day time!!! Hope you didn't get mown down by staff shelf-filling and picking 't'internet orders??? Our store 24-hour store is so quiet at that time of day - yep! been there done that! - but it's like an obstacle course with staff everywhere..........I think they must only work in the early hours cos in the daytime you can never find anyone to ask about stuff!!!!!!!!!



Love and lots of comforting ((((((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))))))) - I know you need 'em............



Dot xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Morning everyone, Liams equipment has finally gone, pleased but also sad as it also confirms that it is not needed if you know what I mean. Off to the gym in a bit to try and get rid of this mood. Hope everyone else are having reasonable days.
Debs x

Hi Everyone,

Debs - I know what you mean about the equipment. I found it so sad when Wullly's went too even though he hated it all. Just another step. Hope the gym helped. I am needing to drag out my wii fit again. I had been doing it and it has fell by the wayside the past few weeks as I just can't motivate myself to do anything. However, I know I feel better getting some exercise.

Lynne, you were up early! You will end up falling asleep again today!

Ailsa & Helen, hope you are both having a better day. I too had quite a few steps back when Jamie started school but I soon caught up again if you know what I mean. It did take me a good week to get back to where I was so hopefully you will be the same.

I am not quite as grumpy today lol! Just a little pigsty today hee hee! Meeting with bank was fine and I didn't commit to anything but he gave me some interesting ideas about investing my money so will think about it then go back and see him again. Got another offer this morning on the house but it was still too low so rejected it. Hopefully 3rd time lucky. Please keep all your fingers (and toes) crossed and I will post later with the happy news I say optimistically!!! Well away to pace the house awaiting another phone call. My nerves are shot to pieces.

Thought I would also mention about another website I went to where I posted a star for Wully. Thought some of you might like it :

http://www.winstonswish.org.uk/foryoungpeople/skyscape/

I bought my two boys a star on both their 1st birthdays so think I will buy one for Wully as you get a nice certificate that I can put up on the wall.

Hugs to everyone.

Gayle xxx

Hi everyone been a lovely day here.

Mood better too!! Good day at work and been to the gym. The gym makes me feel so much better.

How`s everyone else today?

Hello everyone, such a lot seems to have gone on in the last few days. Beagreat, welcome to the thread but sorry for your great loss. Lynne, you are in such turmoil at the minute it is no wonder you don't sleep well. Ailsa forgetting things sounds very familiar. I am very forgetful at the moment and a friend of mine was quite irritated with me because I asked a question which she said she had answered. It actually turns out that she had not given me the information I was enquiring about. Oh well.
I think someone mentioned feeling more 'down' than they had been.(sorry can't remember who). I find I have a few reasonable days and then hit rock bottom.
I had two really busy nights at work. The first one I have already mentioned. The second one was traumatic as I had an emergency incident at the beginning of my shift and then at the end of the shift just before the handover, the flippin fire alarm went off and we had to evacuate the ward. Grrrrrrr.
Kaz, I have agrred to go to London for the weekend with my friends. Whether I actually get there is another matter. We shall see.
On the subject of weddings, my eldest son is also getting married and I too have to lose a substantial amounbt of weight. Goodness only knows how I am going to do it but I do have to try.
Hope you are all feeling just a little bit better today. (Don't catch my germs will you --- I have tried to isolate myself from family as I have a nasty cold and a horrible cough).
Gayle, good luck with the house sale.
Love and angel hugs x x Patricia x x

Hi Everyone , glad the equipment went Debs , we never got any euipment everything happened so fast at the end so he was in hospital ..Hope you have a better shift next time Trisha , you never know what is going to happen in hospitals do you , our hospital went to "red " today so they we're throwing people out before they we're ready , i hate that but i know they need the beds .
Hope everybody is havin a better day , i did , this roller coaster is so unpredictable , i'm hoping to get more sleep tonight and i managed to stay awake in the cemetery , even tho they have put 2 paving stones down in front of the grave ready for a bench , they looked very comfy lol ..
Yes Dottee tesco was full of staff , but no one on the checkouts as usual ...
Hi to everybody else , we dont see Kev much now do we .

Lynne xxxxxxxxxxxx

What does that mean 'Gone to red' is it where they need beds for patients but don't have them ?? Glad you had a better day x x Patricia x x

Sorry Trisha ,Yes its all about the availability of beds , red ,amber, green , red means only a few beds available and thats when they discharge everybody they can , usually to local hospitals but a lot have to go home ..
Lynnexxxx

Flippin government targets have a lot to answer for. Don't they realise that people just bounce back if discharged too soon?? Hope you are ok x x