My husband died in my arms on the 2nd May (2009) - what happens now?

Lynne, hope you`re feeling better soon. Nothing worse than tooth/mouth ache. Good to hear you`ve been pampering yourself xxx

Ailsa will be thinking of you on Wednesday. You`ll do it I know you will xxx

I also saw quite a few sky candles last night while watching the fireworks after midnight, the sky was so lovely and clear too xx

Patricia hope work is ok tonight xxx

Having a glass of wine, it is Friday and soon got to get back into work routine so making most of it

Helen xxx

Well here I am (again). it is just after midnight and all is calm and settled. the night looms ahead long and boring. Oh well musn't complain because it means peopel are settled and sleeping.

Happy birthday Lynne, let us hope that you are not in too much pain to enjoy it.

Love and angel hugs x x x Patricia x x x

Happy birthday Lynne, so sorry about the mouth/tooth ... arrrgghhhh ... there's nothing worse.  Patricia I hope you have a quiet night at work, am so glad to hear you sounding as if you have a little bit of your bounce back.  Ailsa - 3.30 well done you.  Helen, glad you made it to the pub and lovely that there were people around wanting to giv eyou 'Paul hugs'.    I tried to light the sky candles that I had planned to take down to mum and dad's and at exactly 12 midnight it started snowing here, so the first one got soggy and was too heavy to fly, I did end up laughing to myslef (I must have looked a right sight) as I kept trying to light one and it kept flopping over!  I gave up and came inside, only to look out and see it had stopped snowing, so outside again and didn't it start again!!!  However, suddenly one finally seemed to have a life of its own and flew up - so that made me happy enough to go to bed. 

Very quiet day today, house tidy, floors washed, carpets hoovered - I am quite concerned that this may be a 'new me' - no one will recognise me if that is the case!!! lol

Love to all, Judi xx

Morning girls - Happy Birthday Lynne.................and for everyone special (((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))) to see you through the weekend....................xx

Morning all , thank you for the birthday wishes , i'm hoping to spend at least some of it in a dentist chair , not everybodies idea of a good birthday but if i can get rid of this pain i'll welcome it lol . Hope your shift went pretty fast Patricia , i know you said it was quiet but i also know the moment you say that,  things usually start kicking off , i love walking into a deparment in the morning and say "morning its quiet in here today " the nurses faces are a picture lol , they say , you never say its quiet !!! Ah i can just picture you know Judi with the candles lol , something like that would happen to me , but i'm glad you got one off in the end , they are fantastic arn't they . Helen , enjoy the rest of the holiday , like you say it will soon be over and back to the routine again . Sue Thank you for the pictures , i can always rely on you to put a smile on my face . My boss loved the comments you put on face book , she said it made her cry .  Ailsa hope you managed some sleep  , Gayle , Rosemary , Fiona ,Amanda , Lesley , Quill, Jacqui , Bren and Dave , hope you are all getting through this difficult time  , soon be the summer xxxx  

Take care

 Lynne xxxxx

MOrning Dottee , thank you , hope you and Alan are alright and his pain is not to bad , my last job on new years eve invoved driving back through Chatsworth park , not a bad job is it xx

Take care

 Lynne xxx

Good morning all

Well the tree is down (yes, I know it is not officially time!) but I had had enough.The house, like Judi's is clean and tidy and I am going food shopping when I can haul my bum out of bed!

I am starting back at work on Monday so am trying to get in a positive frame of mind in readiness. Only in three mornings to start with and then it builds up to full time over the month.

I had a lovely quiet moment yesterday, after I had finished all the housework. Around lunchtime, I went for a walk around the cemmy, it is just at the top of my street and where Colin and I went for our last walk together, he was too weak to go any further. Anyway, with it being lunchtime it was deserted. I sat on the bench outside the church, looking out over the Pennines, still covered in snow. It was so peaceful, the air was very still and it did not feel cold. The sun was shimmering through the clouds and then it started to snow very gently. I thought about everyone. Some of you know I have been writing to Colin in a journal since he died and I thought how lovely it would be to sit in that same place in the summer time and write to him there. I just wanted to share it with you all, it might not seem much written down but it was a very peaceful half hour or so.

Anyway Lynne I really hope you get your tooth sorted today, I suffer from trigeminal neuralgia and there is nothing quite like tooth pain is there. I hope you still manage to have a good birthday.

Still no sign of my grandchild yet, he/she is obviously going to take after his/her mum, who can never manage to be were she is supposed to be on time, lol!

Have a good day everyone, Lesley xx

Thats lovely Lesley , thank you for sharing xx I love it up at the cemmy even tho its freezng at the moment , it really is so peacefull and i do feel closer to Gordon up there . When i was on my way to the cemmy on wed with flowers , i knew they would be dead the next day when i went but i was still taking them but i could hear his voice in my head saying "you keep them you need them more " so i put them in a vase and i'm looking at them all the time .I'll be glad when all this frost has gone and i can get lots of freash flowers up there , there mostly fakes at the moment but they still look ok xx

 I've just spoke to NHS again and they have given me a number to phone nowfor the emergency dentist  so i'll keep trying that and hopefully they will see me today xx

Take care

Lynne xx

happy birthday, Lynne

xxx

Fantastic Sue , i love it xxxx