My husband died in my arms on the 2nd May (2009) - what happens now?

Dear Lynne - I hope that you managed to go back to sleep for a while and wake refreshed...................Love and ((((((hugs))))))  Dot xxxxxxxxxxxx

Good Christmas wishes to everyone this morning.

It seems everyone managed to either get home, get away or recieve their various friends and relatives despit the bad weather. I hope everyone manages to have a good day and will look forward to seeing everyone at 7pm.

Dave, I am especially thinking of you this morning, maybe you are already up with the kids, hope they have been good and Santa has brought them lots of goodies.

I am sat in bed with lappie. Next door have daughter +1 and sil! They can't believe how earlyI wake everyday, it is not unusual for me to be up and dressed by 5, just can't sleep. Anyway am staying very quiet until they wake and we can creep downstairs to see if there is a little something under the tree!

You will all be in my thoughts today, I am going to my mum's for a quiet lunch and should be home by 6pm, I think I will have had enough of being brave by then. Will settle down in front of TV with a nice G&T I think.

Still no sign of baby, 1 week to go!

Love and Hugs, Lesley xxx

Well, december 25th has arrived, despite our best efforts!

have as good a Christmas as you can, everyone - penguins huddle.

See you all outside at seven.

Stay close!

sue xx

I came to say good morning to you all and have the best day you can, others have said so much more and so well so dare I say .... ditto! Hope everyones mornings are simmering with the turkeys, Dave I hope yours is sizzling!  Christmas is for little ones isn't it?  As said you are a star, people expect us women to be emotional but it must be hard for you as men still feel it all but can't express it the same always.  Hugest hug my love. 

Glad you liked the photo's, I hadn't realised Sam had put the on FB already, so thanks Sue for alerting us, I also hadn't realised she had taken so many of me!  Would have put the make up on and made some effort if I knew you lot were going to be sharing the moment!  Hee hee!  It was about 10 degrees on the beach, and when the sun shone for a while it was lovely.  The dogs thoroughly enjoyed it and both tucked into the seaweed like we hadn't fed them in weeks, Geordie then came back and chucked up on the patio (thank goodness not in the cottage or the car) so that was a worthwhile exercise. 

Really frustrating with the mobile phone signal but have managed to get a few coming in so it's been nice, trying to get some to fly now though.  Thinking of you all though and I was another one awake at 3, but that's not unusual so will try and catch a doze after lunch, hopefully that will cook alright in the strange cooker.  I've got the computer at the moment as Daniel has gone back to bed - Samantha woke us up at 8 (yes I was actually dozing again, you know those moments when you realise you must have been as the really wierd thoughts you were having were really, really wierd).  Bless her she loves Christmas morning.  She and Daniel gave me the most beautiful Clogau jewellery set of necklace and earrings called "Together Forever"

Will be back later, sending you all lots of strength to keep you going xxxxxxxxx

Can't believe I got back in good time, got coat and boots on, opened door, it was snowing heavily again. No sky candles for me tonight. Hope everyone else managed to get theirs going, say a wish for me. xx

Totally gutted, we have had lovely weather today, even the heavy shower passed over quickly this afternoon and then tonight we go out to do the candles and it's howling a blooming gale!  We did try to light two candles but they didn't light properly and then the paper ripped to shreds anyway before they could fill with heat so we had to give up.  Silly how emotional I got and then I couldn't tell the family (they have managed to launch theirs so that is something), I didn't want them knowing how upset I was so I said all was good and they went off well.  Daniel and Samantha were lovely and we have still got some in the box so will let them off one evening from home.  Obviously that's where we should have stayed, not a breath of wind up there apparently.

Lesley I'm glad you are home safe before even more snow gets you, keep warm and big hug from us.  Hope some of the candles have got away alright, even if the lights weren't sent up the love and thoughts went from here.

Speak again tomorrow, Rosemary xxxxxxxx

One of my candles caught fire - I thought of you, Lynne!!!!!

However, the other was fine, and it sailed away with all our love for all our loved ones.

They're not easy to handle, are they! it took 3 of us per sky lantern - they were huge!

had a reall good day overall - a few wobbles tbnis morning, but very busy, with a houseful the rest of the day. all quiet now ; only alice at home, awaiting the arrival of her boyfriend, so it's me, the dogs and the cats in front of - dare i say it - a real log fire!!   i'm absolutely boiling, but it looks good.

Lots of love to all penguins - we got there.

sue xx

Ha Ha Sue i ecpected mine to catch fire , out of the 12  we released only one went in a tree. I'd arranged to meet my friend and her mum on the park (the mum has lost her husband too ) so there was quite a croud of us , we then opened a bottle of champagne and toaste our loveed ones , i then started crying and all the famile crowded round me , and i thought "i can see how the penguins really feel now . I'm sprry for the ones that didn't manage to release there's , there is always new years eve . I've not had much time to think today , all the kids still here and i think there staying so a bit of chaos really .Hope everybody has had a reasnable day .

Take care

Lynne

Ps i've put a video on face book of the release xx

xxx

i'm not drunk its my new net book the letters are so small lol xxx

Hello everyone.  Lynne, my daughter was looking over my shoulder when I read your last post and she cracked out laughing - I'll believe you're not drunk but thousands wouldn't (including Becky!!).  Qote from Father Ted - they're not small they're just far away!

Sorry some of you didn't get your candles set off but it doesn't matter.  The one's that went were in memory of everyone that we all miss.  They are so lovely so when you get some dry, calm weather and you can set them off you will love them.  I can't wait for a chance to do it again.  I have 3 left so New Year and Chris's birthday on the 6th Jan will be a chance to do it again.

Rosemary your photos on facebook are lovely.

Lynne I saw your video on facebook of your candles going up.  What a laugh when I heard someone saying 'if we've set fire to the tree, leg it!'  I put my sky candle picture on FB as well.

I was explaining to Declan about my penguin today and he loves the whole thing.  Dave you have done a wonderful job with the boys and Christmas.  Watching Declan opening his gifts this morning I just kept thinking about you and George & Freddie.  I hope you all had a good day together.

Sue I am glad you had a lovely day with your family.  I have had a nice day with my children as well.  We ate much earlier than usual.  Each part of the meal that they took to prepare, turned out really well - no hiccups at all.  I had a wobble because I set one place too many at the table.  It was not even for Chris.  I knew Toni's boyfriend was not coming afterall but still set him a place.  When Becky pointed out I had done one too many I was so worried that it looked like I had done one for Chris I got upset.  Becky gave me a hug and said she knew I hadn't done it for Chris and not to worry about it.

Judi - so glad Boy got home safely as well as Becky.

Right - I think Becky wants me to watch a film with her so I will get off.  We did it everyone - together.  XXX