My husband died in my arms on the 2nd May (2009) - what happens now?

Patricia , glad the fireworks are finished for you now , have a good sleep xxxxxxxx

Hello everyone.  It sounds like there are a few busy bods tonight.  I hope you have great fun.  Lynne - dressing up again!  It is so lovely that your family are there for you.  Enjoy tonight.

Judi - the hotel dry run is a brainwave.  Enjoy - chinese, bar and all!!  I loved your tale about the film and now I want to go see it.

I put the painting to one side last night and went to see 'This is it' with a friend.  I thoroughly enjoyed it so I am glad I had a night off.  Need to make up for it tonight though.  Need to get another wall done.

Have you got anything planned tonight or over the weekend Helen?  I thought about you alot today because of the 6 month anniversary.  It messed me up more than I thought it would so I am sending you lots of ((((((hugs)))))).

Fiona - I am sorry you are feeling so much pain.  Please don't worry about your decision.  It would not have been fair to do anything else.  I really hope you start to feel a little bit better very soon.  You have the new baby to look forward to.  You need to take care of yourself for then xx.

How are you tonight Patricia?  I didn't see many fireworks last night but I think that is because I went to the pictures while most of it was on.  Now I think of it I would recommend that for anyone who is bothered by them.  If it stops raining tomorrow I might go to the organised bonfire and fireworks in Locke Park in Barnsley.  I am not going to bother if it stays this wet thought - it was like a bog last year and Chris & I didn't stay long because of the cold and wet.

How is everyone else - Esme, Gayle, Sue, Kaz, Jean & Dot?  I hope I haven't forgotten anyone because I think it is possible that the paint has actually disolved the one and only brain cell I was saving for the weekend!!

Well - the painting won't do itself!  Have a good evening everyone.  Ailsa xx

Evening everyone

Hope everyone has a good Friday. I put on my status before that I love Fridays!! I then read it and thought but do I really? I enjoy being able to chill and not have to get up in the morning. I also felt guilty and wondered what people would think about me posting that comment. Mad eh? Obviously still miss Paul like mad but Fridays are more bearable than the rest of the weekend.

I`m out for my visit with friends tomorrow Ailsa, going with my neighbour who is male but an old friend!! Feel bit worried about it now but looking forward to an afternoon out.

Dot, my trainer is very mean lol!!!

Gayle has been in her house a week now, hopefully she will be back online soon.

Judi have a great night and Lynne too xx

Sue it`s weekend again, soon be hols lol!!

Hi Esme, Kaz and Jean and everyone else I might have forgot

Helen xxx

Helen stop apologising for yorself and open the wine!!

Sue xx

This b*~****y edit button!!!!

Ha ha, love it  Sue!! You`re right as usual, the wine is open. Cheers!!

Helen xxx

Enjoy the wine Helen and enjoy tomorrow.  I am being a little less couth tonight and drinking cider straight out of the bottle - I've got my painting clothes on and it isn't a litre bottle!!  Ailsa xx

Dare I ask what size bottle???  Does it matter???  Can you see straight to paint???  Or are you now going for a Rolf-style murial????

    -for when you run out!!!!!

'Alcopop' size!!  I found 3 all on their own in the fridge in the garage so I have just made a start on the 2nd.  Painting still looks straight to me but I might feel differently in the morning!  xx