My husband died in my arms on the 2nd May (2009) - what happens now?

Oh Lynne what are you like lol!!!  We will definitely start calling you Jane!  I think we better prewarn the hotel we book about you (just kidding xx). 

I've had an okay day today.  Still no further forward with the house so will have to wait until Monday now.  I have seen a lovely house to rent but the landlord was unavailable so the letting company will let me know on Monday as the guy is thinking of just selling it.  In one way though I can relax a bit as I know nothing is going to happen over the weekend so I don't jump when the phone rings.

Nothing exciting planned for tomorrow - take the boys to the barbers go to the shops etc and then on Sunday go and cheer my sister on when she runs the marathon.

Patricia, hope your night goes well and you got some rest today.  That was cool about the film.  Funnily enough I was just thinking about user names today and finally clicked what yours stands for Ailsa lol!  Took me a while.

Hope everyones day has been okay and you have got lots of busy things planned for the weekend.

Love Gayle xx

Hi Everyone,

Hope you are all ok tonight, it's an awful night here tonight it's wet and windy. Been at my dad's for the evening. I am working tomorrow but nothing planned for Sun as yet. Well i am off to bed now speak again tomorrow.

Take Care

Fiona xxxxxxxx

Hello everyone.  I know it is late but I am never good at going to bed on Friday's.  I have had a lovely time out for my meal with my friend and her colleagues from her work.  We got lost going to the restaurant - flipping sat navs!!!  But we got there in the end and the girls were lovely and the food was great.  We found a much simpler way home.

Fiona I hope you Dad is doing okay.  I make cards for friends and family.  It is nice that you do baby cards to sell.  I have such a big family that I don't have enough time to make anymore than I do now.  I enjoy it and finally seem to have worked out my own style

Patricia did your sister like the top you made for her?  I sew sometimes.  I used to make a lot of dresses for nights out but don't really need any for now.  Through the dark nights I am planning to make 10 roman blinds and some curtains for my conservatory.  I will spread it out over a long period so I don't get bored so I am looking forward to it.  I always get a nice feeling pf pride and satisfaction when I complete a sewing job.  I started to watch Mermaid this afternoon but fell asleep.  It looked like it was going to be a nice - but touching - film.  I will have to wait for it to come on again.  The chemo angel sounds lovely of you but I bet you find it hard keeping negative things from her.

Lynne - what are you like!?!  You never cease to make me smile.  Has someone warned Benidorm?

Hi Gayle - I hope you are going to be able to put all thoughts about houses and moving out of you head for the weekend.  It is funny when you wander about user names.  I forget about mine because I don't use it for anything else.  Well spotted - 1977 is the year Chris and I got married.

Well it really is well and truly tomorrow so I should get off to bed.  Hope you are having a good shift Patricia.  Good night everyone.  Ailsa xx

Morning All , Ailsa what a good ideh to plan youe evenings like that i'm already dreading them , i used to sew when the kids we're small but not done any for years , i have toyed with the idea of the gym but all that equipment phew might be a bit risky lol . WE've not warned Benidorm but your right i think we should , my 2 sisters are just as bad really , oh dear not sure if we should be let out on our own .. Hope work wasn't to bad Patricia , my day was much better yesterday and i had some lovely patients , my very last one as i was saying bye to her pulled me to her and gave me thebiggest hug it was so unexpected and genuine , it made me cry but in a good way , arn't people nice ...

Gayle enjoy your weekend stress free without the thoughts of houses going through your head , enjoy your lovely boys .. Fiona the weather is getting a bit wild here at the moment , wouldn't youy know it because i'm going to get my hait cut and blowed , i can imagine when i've been on my bench a couple of mins it will be all over the place , oh well never mind . I'm going to a wedding reception tonight so not sure how that wil go , but its out so thats one thing

I'm going to phone my friend up to see if she wants to go for a coffee or something , as its her birthday on monday and i will miss it .

Hope you had a good girlie night Helen , isn't it funny how things we do in the day make us think of each other , if i hear a liverpool accent i think of you Helen , not sure why , do you talk with a scouse accent lol .Its like the mermaid film i know who i thought of then ..

Anyway going to get ready , have a good day everybody , hope everybody is ok ..

Take care

 Lynne xxxxxxxxx

Morning everyone

Gayle you do really crease me up, Benidorm should definately get a warning. looking forward to hearing about the tales you get up to there, but maybe if you avoid coffee, hand driers and old ladies things will be ok lol. Glad work went well yesterday and I hope you enjoy your day today sounds like another busy one.

Gayle glad your not going to let the house stress you out this weekend. Enjoy shopping with the boys I love shopping with my two but it can be a very expensive day out! Hope your sister copes well tomorrow, hopefully the weather will be kind to her.

Ailsa and Patricia how wonderful that you are so good with a sewing machine. i have never been any good, although my oldest daughter seems to enjoy it so maybe I can get her to make me things. I used to enjoy knitting but was always needing advice from my mum who was excellent, now that she is gone I wouldn't feel confident in tackling anything.

Patricia what I lovely idea to have a chemo buddy. It must really help her, although must be hard for you sometimes, but also maybe helpful having to think about happy things. Hope work went well last night, what do you do?

Well I'm just about to take kate to Lincoln for her lake swim, rather her than me today its horrible out there but I suppose when your in the water it doesn't really matter! Not sure about the afternoon will take it as it comes I think.

Debs x

Morning all.  It's a windy one here today.

Good luck to Kate for her swim Debs - rather her than me today.

Enjoy meeting your friend Lynne.  That's really scary if your sisters are as accident prone as you.

Got my usual busy head on this morning so I have a few jobs planned.  Don't think I am doing anything tonight or expecting any visitors as my son is still celebrating his birthday with various friends.  I feel a bit more optimistic these last 2 days so I am not craving the counselling so much.  That can only be a good thing seen as how it is proving very difficult to find.  I hope evryone else is okay today.  Ailsa xx

Hi, everyone

debs - what a brave girl - rather her than me. It's blowing a gale here and trying its hardest to rain; what a shame, won't be able to cut the grass!

have a lazy day planned for today, as off to the south coast tomorrow for a bit of a do with Alan's family, celebrating a double ruby wedding with his cousins. Have borrowed satnav from a friend, now have to programme it........could end up anywhere!

        No sense of direction whatsoever, so may or may not be back tomorrow evening!!

ailsa, you are doing so well - all power to you.

Lynne, you just have a wonderful holiday - have sent warning to benidorm hotels asking them to keep you away from handdryers, coffee cups, balloons of any shape or size, benches, sleeping bags............................

       Look out, Lynne's about1

Enjoy, girlie!

Everyone else, have as good a weekend as you can

sue x

Hi everyone,

Very stormy here today also.  Raining and really windy.  So had a quick nip out to the barbers and the local shop and then back home to read the papers and have my lunch.

I am glad you are feeling a bit better the past couple of days Ailsa - I guessed the 1977 was your wedding date lol!

Debs, don't envy your daughter and hope she gets on all right.  How was work yesterday?

Lucky you Lynne jetting off out of this miserable weather.  Not sure if it is to last or not but I hate the wind.  Don't mind anything else just don't like windy weather.

Fiona, hope your day goes okay at work.  Not long till Kim's big day?

Sue, you have got a busy time of it - Sat Nav is either brilliant or rubbish - nothing in between.   My kids love watching it though - keeps them occupied.

Helen - how did your night go last night?  You are awfully quiet - hope you are feeling a bit better.

Well off to make a nice roll in sausage and hot cup of tea and read the paper.

Love and Hugs

Gayle x

Hello everyone, It is really windy here too. The sun is shining but looks can be deceptive. I hope the Ruby celebrations go well Sue. My dad has gone to London this week-end using his sat-nav system. It has been amusing listening to hi sntics whilst using it. (he is 82 and puts me to shame). Lynne, please stay away from the 'exit' doors on the aeroplane.  Gayle hope you enjoy your lunch.  Ailsa, you are always so busy. I feel tired just reading about what you are doing. Debs, hope Kate enjoyed her lake swim. Fiona, Helen I hope today is going as well it can for you.

My sister was delighted with the top I made for her. Phew!!  It is made from a stretchy material and is all swirly multi colours. It has a halter neck and integral glass beads in red and green.  She tried it on and it looks lovely on her. As she is going on holiday with a friend who copies everything she buys the  tops I have made her over the past couple of weeks are especially welcome because they cannot be duplicated by the friend.

Take care my friends. Love and angel hugs x x Patricia x x