My husband died in my arms on the 2nd May (2009) - what happens now?

well gayle, sorry about the house but hopefully something better is on the horizon for you. glad you enjoyed your day with the stylist. will check out f/b requests.

Debs so sorry you had such a difficult day but good news about daughter.

Helen, glad you had a nice meal.  Hope you sleep better tonight

I still don't sleep well and still cry at the silliest things but hey, I will cope because I have to.

Take care of yourselves.

Love and angel hugs x x patricia x x

Great Sue. Glad you had a good time.  Sleep well x x

Afternoon everyone

Hope the lack of activity today means people are having good days. Feeling a little better today been catching up on housework and have just got back from the gym. Always feel better after the gym i don't know why. Am now getting ready for work, finish at 10 tonight but at least when its over I'm not in till sunday so will be able to relax a bit. Still feel very tense about the thought of work but as you tell me it should get better after the first week. I will be holding you all to that!!!

Debs x

Evening everyone

Debs I know what you mean about feeling better after the gym! I`ve been tonight after work. Hope work is going ok tonight.

Gayle I hope you get sorted with a house soon, renting might save you rushing into anything.

Feel bit better, still bit fed up but getting there! Had a friend round last night so had a good chat. Friday tomorrow, where do the weeks go??

Well done Sue!! Do you win anything?

Hope everyone else is ok tonight, we`ve all been bit quiet haven`t we?

Helen xx

Hello everyone.  You're right Debs & Helen - we do seem to be a bit quiet just now.  I didn't come on last night for complicated reasons.  I had an invite to a pub opening which is a bit odd mid-week.  So I wasn't sure whether I really wanted to go - my breathing is still not right so I thought maybe I should relax.  The bank had sent yet another credit card statement to Chris.  I don't actually mind getting mail in Chris's name but it is the bank who have caused me so much upset by removing his name from everything apparently so that I don't get upsetting mail!  I was annoyed at their incompetance plus it re-emphasis's that they didn't need to take his name off everything.  I rang them and no-one was able to speak to me about anything because no-one could track down who had sent the letter.  I ended up wishing I hadn't rung because their incompetance was staring me in the face and they are supposed to be looking after my money.  They are the only one's that do it - I ended up in tears and said I was going to put the phone down now.  I was so upset I was trying to think who I should ring to hug me over the phone when I got a text from a friend wanting to know what I was going to wear to the pub.  I rang her straight away and had a good cry!!  She talked me into going to the pub for an hour after all so I had to get ready then and had no time to pop on here.  Because I had been crying I was a bit tired at the pub so I stayed until about 10 past 10 and then came home and went to bed.

Today has been a better day.  It is my son's birthday so I have spoken to him a couple of times.  I have started the ball rolling to have a bench put in the cemetery dedicated to Chris, his dad and his brother.  It sounds pretty straight forward so I am looking forward to having somewhere nice to sit next summer.

How is everyone else?  I was glad the opticians trip went okay Patricia.  If you don't mind I will request you as a friend on facebook later.

Keep up the good work with the studying Kaz.

I was sorry to hear the house may fall through Gayle.  You have been through enough recently.  It sounds like you are quite confident about the prospect of maybe renting though so that is good.  I love the sound of the stylist.  I have a voucher for a make-up lesson so I really should use it soon.

How did the visit to your Dad go today?

You must be so proud of your daughter for settling in so well at her new school Debs.  I am glad to hear that the gym de-stresses you and Helen after a difficult day at work.  I don't think I have time to join a gym.  Only because I can't seem to stop doing jobs so I would always be going to go when I have finished a few more jobs.  It would be such a waste of money for me.  I will start using my wiifit now that my back is improving.

Right I will post this and hope someone else comes on tonight.  Take care everyone xxx

Evening all ,I've missed you for a couple of days xx i've had a really crappy couple of days at work thankgoodness last one tommorow . Had some really dificult patients this week , and at one point i even got a punch in the face of a lovely old lady , she didn't know what she was doing but it didn't stop it from hurting , you know like when you want to cry but feel stupid , thats how it was , i would normally have took it on the chin(pardon the pun) but just wanted tpo phone Gordon for some sympathy , oh well hopefully no little old ladies will be punching me next week , maybe boxing , would be a good evening class !!

Sorry about the house Gayle but like someone says maybe its meant to happen and things will work out better now . Sue will you be on my team please if we go on a quiz show ? Hope your feeling better now Helen , what a roller coaster this life is ..

I've been talking to S/D tonight as her sister gets home from Afghan (thank goodness ), well she's been out if there for a few days but been in Ireland , so i think theyll be coming down to see me next weekend , i am looking forward to having a good chat as i feel we 're still not on track fully and its such a shame as we did get on really well .

Anyway hope the rest of the team are ok .

Lynne xxxxxxxxxx

Sorry i missed your post Ailsa , i have a problem to with the building society today , there has been a claim in since march (accident and sickness ) and this turned into 2 claims when i lost Gordon and everytime i phone i get passed from pillar to post , they said today that they have 19 years of Gordons medical records and they go to a commitee a week on tues to see if i get the pay out , god know what ther looking for , obviouly someway that they dont have to pay out .Glad your friend text just when you needed it ((((((hugs )))))))))))) Hope you've enjoyed your sons birthday xxxxxx

Girls!!!!!

All this talk of going to the gym is worrying me!  I'm far too advanced inyears for all that palaver!

so sorry it's been a rubbish few days for so many of us; Lynne, sorry but you made me smile again with the image of the dear old lady clocking you on the chin!

Gayle, the house buying will happen; it might not be the first house you chose, but I bet it will be even better than that. These things have a way of working out for the best.

Our quiz team's winnings over the last 9 months have amounted to nearly £200; we have saved it all, and are going out for a meal in december. should be good.

hope tomorrow is better for everyone - at least it's Friday!!!

Sue x

I'll tell you something Sue , if i'd had 3 rounds with her she would have won all 3 , she was as strong as a ox , xxxxxxxxx