It will be 1 year since I lost the love of my life from bowel cancer. He was diagnosed at Stage 4 and was given 6 months - 2 years. He passed 6 months after diagnosis after bravely fighting it, with my son who was 16 at the time and I at his bedside. I feel so empty and feel robbed of not having more time together, even though we had 20 wonderful years together. I see older couples enjoying life together and get quite angry at times. I watch my son play football and get upset that he doesn’t have his dad there. I just feel so down and have tears rolling down as I write this. We should have been heading to retirement together. We never got around to getting married but we had been engaged for a lot of years and I feel guilty that we didn’t get married, we thought we had more time.
