I am trying to re-purpose my Paul’s study. It is only a small room, but I would like to honour him by creating a joint room. This will be our special room, filled with lovely memories of travel together, his love of languages (he managed a year of Open University), passed with a Distinction for Spanish and French. His strange love of Nic nacs, pen knife, zippo lighters, post it notes, and his vinyl collection. I will add ceramics from our travels, get some of our art framed, and travel guides on different countries. Today, I made a good start. However, as I was clearing his filing cabinet I got upset, as it reminded me of all the wonderful times we had together. It is 18 months now, and I thought it might have gotten easier. I will get there, I just have to take it slowly. Not sure why I am posting, I think I was taken back by the intensity of the emotion. Kate. xxx
Hi Kate. That sounds lovely and it will come together slowly in your own time.
Im finding memories of happy times a bit double edged. Yes we had some lovely times, but they also make me sad that there wont be any more. Im not sure how it can be happy and sad at the same time, but I find it is. These are the times that take us by surprise.
Hugs xx
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