Scared

Absolutely, I get waves of panic when I think about the future but like someone else said on here, we are stronger than we think, still ploughing on each day. I find it helps to switch thinking too far ahead and focus on the next day, hours or even next hour if it feels too much xx 

I know exactly what you mean, nursing my husband through cancer, I worry what will happen to me is I get cancer, how will I cope, who will be there for me?

But worrying about the future isn't going to change it and all we can do is try and prepare for ourselves, save a bit of money and try to live as healthy a life as possible. I hope you're ok

I look into the future and its bleak. Im due a new knee, put it off twice whilst I was Tonys full time carer, now Im scared because Im on my own. 

So I agree, i try to draw back on the future and focus more on the here and now, today, this week, maybe next week. Its enough. Its all I can manage.

Me too I got a phone call today from my GP practice nurse. Every year I have to go for a health check up because I have an underlying health condition- my yearly MOT I call it so I went a few weeks ago and this was me getting my results today. The result is my blood pressure was raised and they want me to monitor it for the next 7 days. ( I have a BP monitor at home). My cholesterol was at 6 last year and it's down to 5.9 they would rather it be down to 5 or under so they're giving me the option to begin statins to get that down further but its not compulsory nurse said they would just keep monitoring that in anycase whether with or without statins but will leave it open for me if I want to start them so get the BP thing out the way then maybe think about it. This is the 2nd time I've had to do this. The last time I had to monitor my BP Jay was still here so that was a wee trigger for me today too and its things like this that make me realise that I really do need to keep my health in check because I am the one here now for everyone else. Other than stop eating altogether I don't know what else to do as I hardly eat as it is and I've changed to a lot of healthy options and don't have the `Jay size meal portions` he used to make where there was enough to feed an army. The nurse did say to me though that it is good that I'm trying to make an effort so I'll keep plodding on with it.