A long time but I am here again

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Hello out there. I wish you all a very happy and peaceful time. I haven't posted in about six months.Why ? I felt I had turned a corner after my husband's death nearly 4 years ago. I live in France and went back home in May to Glasgow. This was the turning point I think. The reason for going was to set up contacts to have and exhibition of Barry's photographs. He was a professional photo/ journalist and had travelled all over the world. I met many people and it was a positive focus for me. He entrusted me with a wealth of photos and I envisage a project called Going Home and maybe a long term archive there too. I am hoping to go back again in the Spring.

This is all to say that I will never forget him and I think of him every day. Often asking his advice or his take on things or people ! His rugged Glaswegian humour has saved me a few times ! 

I am ok here in France, have a good network of friends and neighbours but of course we all know when we shut that door at night it is just us. I miss that chat and easy communication about nothing and everything. I have a little cat called Missy who is my absolute joy and lifeline. She knows when I feel down 

Anyway I just wanted to reach out and say I was thinking of you all. Whatever the stage of grief and journey you are at. This forum really helped me a lot

 Thank you . Lots of love and hugs. Fifinet xx

  • Hello `Scottish Person`

    Nice to hear from you again was wondering where you went toThinking. Good to hear you got to come home to Glasgow for a little while. Did you notice anything different about the place from the time you had been away? so many changes going on. I don't often go into the city centre but when I do I notice a lot of changes. Good to know too that you feel you have turned a corner with grieving for Barry. I can't believe its two and half years already since I lost Jay. Had a lovely Christmas day yesterday at my son and daughter in laws house and you may have seen in my posts here that I am a grandmother again for the 2nd time. Just being with them yesterday was lovely and great . to see my oldest wee granddaughter going through Santa's bag that he left at grans for herBlush but as she's at school now I think it won't be long until the `santa illusion` fades but we keep it going as long as possible. The baby slept most of the time me and my sister were there so I didn't get a lot of cuddles with her but plenty time other times for that. Still hard for me to comprehend that Jay is not here even after all that time but it's got slightly easier. Lovely to hear from you again Fifi and good that seem a little more settled where you are now and I'm sure `Missy` will be helping you with that. Take Care. 

    Vicky x

  • Hello Vicky Thank you for replying little Scottish person ! I hoped you would.

    Glad to hear that you are ok. Family of course keeps you busy.With little ones around. You will be missing Jay though. It is always there just underneath the surface ? I think I have felt it a bit more this year for some reason.

    Onwards and upwards. We haven't much choice. 

    Hugs to you. Will keep in touch a bit more here. Love Fiona x

    Fifinet 
    As Voltaire, the French writer said " I am going to be happy because it is good for my health "
  • Hi Fiona. 

    Yes although I said things are a little better I think this year I have been feeling Jay's loss a bit more. I think because William (my son) and my now daughter in law Nicole got married in February this year and then there was the arrival of Esme my new granddaughter in October and he has not been here to see both. I did a speech at the wedding though and included both him and Nicole's mum Sandra in it as they lost Sandra to stomach cancer in 2024. The speech was well received so that felt good. But, as you say onwards and upwards and I have some `plans` for the new year but whether they come to fruition or not is another thing usually at this time of the year being swept up in the holiday mood you are full of what you are going to do in the new year but sometimes it never happens once all the glitter and excitement of the holiday period have all died away. As i said, good to hear from you again and yes please do keep in touch here. Take Care. 

    Vicky x