Thankyou everyone here, reading these posts is the only time I am with anyone who understands. It's only been 17 days, we haven't had the funeral yet, but already I feel alienated from the world. All my friends are in couples, every one of them. They're still checking in all the time but I know it won't last. I hate going out because everything is about Christmas; how can I do Christmas, why do I even have to pretend? People in shops saying 'have a nice day' when I'm screaming inside. Nobody in my real world gets this. I don't want to be pitied but I know I am. Thankyou again for this lifeline.
Hi Mrs VT just wondering do you live Norfolk..with you mentioning East Anglia Air ambulance..sorry random question x
I’m the same as Spirit - Suffolk.
I friend messaged me earlier and asked how I’m coping these last few days.
I replied - Alcohol, chocolates, familiar films I can recite lines from, alcohol, very long walks and copious crying.
Her immediate reply? Do you want to come to mine for a few hours. I have alcohol, chocolates, Netflix, dogs that need walking and lots of boxes of tissues.
I could have hugged her, it was just the right text at the right time to make me smile.
God, it’s hard Christmas and New year isn’t it.
Not a question. A fact.
Completely. We survived, with my daughters parting gift being to give me her rotten cold.
So now Im on rhe chocolates, films, ( dont drink alcohol) but lemon teas and maybe soup if I can be bothered. And Im still in my PJs, and dont care.
We had a lot of tears but some laughs too. We put a photo and a candle on the table and talked to him all the time. X
SpiritintheSky, do take a look at Wayup (https ://way-up.co.uk/) as there may be a group local to you that you can join. I registered on Wayup about 9 months after my wife, Lin, died and someone contacted me and said I was welcome to join their group. I have met some lovely people who have lost their spouses/partners and we meet-up about 3 times a month for a meal of tenpin bowling. Everyone understands why you are there and are happy to talk about their experiences. Hopefully you will find something.
Take care,
Derek
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