Thankyou everyone here, reading these posts is the only time I am with anyone who understands. It's only been 17 days, we haven't had the funeral yet, but already I feel alienated from the world. All my friends are in couples, every one of them. They're still checking in all the time but I know it won't last. I hate going out because everything is about Christmas; how can I do Christmas, why do I even have to pretend? People in shops saying 'have a nice day' when I'm screaming inside. Nobody in my real world gets this. I don't want to be pitied but I know I am. Thankyou again for this lifeline.
