The 1st year of my partner passing away is coming, Christmas Day...I honestly don't know where this year has gone and one day just blurs into another one. But I'm getting more anxious as don't really know how to deal with it, what I'm supposed to do. I've got 2 children in their 20s at home we used to go my mums every year obviously apart from last year. I don't want to be sad for them but if I go will I be sad there. Will people message me , do i want them to especially the people i never hear from? Will they forget? My head bit all over the place thinking about it. I just want it over with really.
