2 years 4 months

Mand

Wow all I can say is I am 5 months and this hell I am in I expect it to stay until I am with Simon again the thought of 2 years how did you do that your poor boy I am sure you have to mask up for him but it must be lonely I am ok with feeling sad with Simon we were in love for 30 years why would I be any different sending you a hug x

Hello Mand.

I'm just a little bit further on that you and I'm 2 years 10 months in this Friday and I get everything you are saying. I  lost my husband to bowel cancer in June 2023 and there are days I sometimes still can't comprehend that he is gone. As you say, you try to get involved and keep occupied as much as possible with everyday issues but there is still that feeling of `emptiness` there. So much has happened that I have wanted to share with him but he's not here to see it. I just wish he could come back for just one day and I can tell him everything that has happened since he has gone. I have moved forwards be it slightly but again as you say nothing just feels the same and at times I feel as though I am just existing too. This is a good place to come though if you want to let off steam or vent about something as everyone here `gets it` and we are all on that same horrible journey. My best wishes to you moving forwards and to everyone else here. Take Care. 

Vicky x