I’m feeling a little more lonely right now it’s my birthday tomorrow we didn’t get too excited about them as you get older but made each day special for each other and spent the day together. I’ve pushed myself to go for my walk tonight which was hard and now I’m sat on sofa with tears haven’t wanted to eat my tea yet either. Something inside me says pull myself together but we all know what another day without our loved ones.
i have planned something completely different tomorrow weather permitting that hopefully will make me laugh and smile again for a bit in the meantime I feel pretty shitty eyes red with crying no one I feel I can phone up and talk too either.
It was my birthday last Friday (21st November) just felt like another day though and as you say as you get older birthdays become less important. Jay never made a big fuss of my birthday we would go out for dinner though and his usual was `here's the debit card get what you want` he was never one for picking and choosing presents for people and always left all that to me. I just got myself a bottle of wine and some chocolates and watched some TV but I was fine with that. My son and daughter in law and my little granddaughters took me out to dinner yesterday (23rd) so that was nice of them. Feeling his loss so much this year for some reason but I know he's somewhere watching over us all. Take Care.
Vicky x
There aare no rules, you have to follow your instincts…no one should ever say you must be doing such & such. Your mourning is yours to hold and accept. Tomorrow will come and maybe you feel a little stronger and positive, you decide.
I hope the sun comes out again for you x
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