Normally I wouldn’t be bothered by this but had a text from someone say hope things are a little easier at the moment and would love to met up sometime. I haven’t met up with them ever when my husband was alive I didn’t want to so don’t particularly want to now either. I know it’s probably them just being friendly. Then another person sent me 12 photos of their beautiful holiday out of the blue which I didn’t appreciate either it was a bit much.
i think it’s going to be a long weekend I’ve just got stuck into cleaning the bathroom, sat I would often make a cake for us both, can’t even decide what to organise for lunch let alone dinner living Alone is hard I’m learning that and it’s so quiet.
Some people can feel they are being well meaning but can be tactless at the same time. I got all that at the beginning `we'll meet up for lunch` `I'll give you a phone` etc etc which never seemed to materialise. It's never `easier` at the beginning quite the opposite but sometimes people and I am guilty of that myself, sometimes just don't know how to express things and say the wrong thing. I have my granddaughter just now her mum and dad working today so she had her usual Friday sleepover with me last night. We've down in the back garden and she helped me lop back a trailing bush that is creeping over to my side of the fence well I lopped off the leaves and branches and she `helped` to sweep them up to bag them. Then we made a tent with the table and chairs she has some imagination and just keeps going like a cyclone she's just full of beans and I sometimes find it hard to keep up with her sometimes
. Once she leaves I'll go back down and tackle the tree just over my back fence. I need ladders for that so not very practical with the wee one still here. Yes living alone can be hard and I have realised that in the last few weeks and sometimes the `silence can be deafening`. Would have been our wedding anniversary today 39 years married we would have been. He passed on the 23rd June 2023 just two days after our anniversary its as if he wanted to hold on for just one more with me before he went. Two years gone already doesn't feel like that and still at times find it hard to comprehend he is gone. Take Care.
Vicky x
