Sorry, just needed to say it as its been bugging me since meeting with a friend today.
Why can't people see you? Why can't they hear you?
Why can't they acknowledge you? It's not my job to make them understand is it? Why do I need to repeat myself? I don't expect people to understand, how can they? But I do expect them to think before they speak or at least hear me and what I've been saying the last 2 years and 9 months.
So now I just say nothing, I'm exhausted with explaining. They say the most ridiculous things that infuriates, yet they 'mean well'.
Just makes me want to isolate and not bother with anyone. They just think things are miraculously better or you're the person you used to be, not that every part of your life and very being has imploded.
I actually want to scream, I wish I was in the position to be so ignorant, and the ironic thing is I know I wouldn't be if roles were reversed.
Like the book says, we cannot be fixed, we just want to be heard!
Urgh! I'll stop now 
End of ranty rant rant
Me to please.
I have a few very close, good, caring, thoughtful friends.
And 2 really good neighbours.
But those “I’m here for you” fair weather friends have evaporated into thin air.
The texts have dried up.
None of the offers of coffee have materialised, though I have asked.
No ones actually dodged behind cars when they see me………..though I have.
But there are definite “must dash” or “wish I could stop” by the dozen.
Sod ‘em.
Funnily enough, some unexpected people have come forward.
A couple that have surprised me, but thinking about them, I know my beautiful Valen would not be surprised by.
