Return to work tomorrow following the death of my husband 4 weeks ago

You could try emailing him. I email my late son occasionally, and it makes me feel better.

Good luck, I hope you get the support you need and are on a phase return x

Thank you I have actually been writing some things down in a little notebook if his and my feelings it will certainly help my lunch break go quicker. 

But I also know I don't want to talk to people on my lunch so I'll probably distance myself and get in the car for a while some time out.

Tell us. 
Come in here and tell us how it’s going x

I did survive the day but it was hard I cried on the way to work driving along and upon arrival. I was scared and worried and had no idea what to expect. I had lots of hugs and respectful comments and brief conversations and talked to who I wanted to and probably bent their ear too much as let’s face it there’s no one else at home now to listen to me. Many times though out the day I became upset even just breaks as I always would what’s app text  or call on lunch this really has got to me that I can’t get in touch. 
Left work walking to the car knowing I’m going to an empty house no cuppa tea ready no one to hug kiss and chat to AND TO make dinner for or I was lucky enough quite often to have dinner made for me my husband was a great cook.

Returning home with a migraine I was stressed obviously and tired but day one over. Woke up today still with fuzzy head. Will attempt a small food shop tomorrow as last week was unsuccessful eating and cooking for one now is not so much fun and I found it very difficult being in the shop we would go to together. 

i came to bed at 8pm this evening again this is ridiculous but I don’t want TV yet and still can’t put Alexa on to play some random music or the radio. 

I’m also questioning if my husbands blood cancer treatment hadn’t been stopped whilst he was on dyalsis for the last 6 months of his life would he still be here now? His cancer had  worsened  and had gone to leukaemia. He became very ill and agitated but I did not think he was ready to go just yet and leave me x  

I returned to work after a month,my partner passed Christmas Day.. I work from home but I still dreaded it..speaking to people on phone..I have days now I don't cry so much but think its cos work blocks it out. Hope its been helping a tiny bit x