I Have decided to get a DNR order

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hi 

under the circumstance i decided to ask for a DNA order with all my illness i think its best i know my family dont totally argee but i think it best for everyone.because if i do come round there could very easily be brain damage and i not going to putting my family through that kinda hell they have been through it once and that was enough.it might not be today or next month or next year but when it does and it will sadly.i think its best.sorry if this seem iam giving in but in truth i gave up the day cveti passed and looking back i cant put whats left of my family through that again so when it does come let life take it course and pass. 

  • I understand. You get to choose. My husband passed on the 4th of August, and he had a DNR. It is a personal decision. We have two adult children, and I will be doing the same. My role is to protect and guide them where I can. At times, this has been incredibly difficult as I have been lost in my own grief. The one gift I can give them is to be a responsible mother. Kind regards, Kate. Xxx

  • hi kate

    thank you its just been so hard.I have decided to try and push a little harder in trying change my mind set right and it will take me right out of my comfort zone but ive got to try because now i am swing badly from being kinda positive to totally destroyed.And ive got to make sure every thing is in place for martin hes the most important person right now.This morning destroyed me at about 8.00ish this martin was calling for his mum in his sleep and this went on for about 20 minutes its just broke me in to bits and ive just got to make sure things are sorted because i cant put martin and jade through this once was bad enough hes only 19 and a young 19 we have been over protective with martin so hes a young 19 year old.And i understand you.Cveti had a DNR as well.And the moment cveit died i just to do CPR but i could not for the first time in my life i was totally powerless and not at.Then in the next few least try that was reallly hard even has i write this its hard the emotion is so strong and not in the good way.in truth i cant see the woods for the trees iam just on instinct.i just feel like a shell empty nothing left but some how ive got to try and push things back.but every move just seems to take more out me.sorry my head in just messed up never felt like this.i Hope you find some kinda of peace but if cant i really understand.Take care Xxx  

  • Hi!

    Jay was actually advised to sign a DNR. Because he had got sepsis a few times they said his internal organs may not tolerate ressusitation so when his 3rd bout happened and he was admitted to resus again the clinician came round and spoke to him and said if it happened again and his heart gave out it would more or less be pointless trying to bring him back as there would more or less be organ damage they actually saw him going on the 3rd bout but for some reason he pulled through I was told to be prepared to gather family together but he made it that time.  So as I have posted here previously it was on his 4th bout of sepsis along with his advancing cancer which they could eventually do nothing about that finally took him two years ago. This is nothing I have thought about so far but it will come to a point at some time but I'm not ready to take that decision just yet. Wish you all well. Take Care. 

    Vicky x

  • Hi Julian, I had to dig into my inner resilience really deeply to find the strength to support our adult children. They are 27 and 32 years, so not young. However, they had never been through anything as savage as this before. They helped care for my husband Paul at home, in the lead up to his death. We are a very close family, and they are still at home. My daughter had to take a couple of months off work, and had counselling. My son tends to try and deal with his grief on his own. They have both heartbroken. They have both had horrible nightmares and flashbacks. How could they not ? May I recommend at book that is genuinely helping me. It is called, “It is ok, not to be ok,” by Megan Devine. You can get it Amazon. It talks about the truth of grief, and what we need to survive. The author’s partner died in a swimming accident, aged 40. I tend to read it in the middle of the night, when the pain gets too much. Sending hugs, Kate.xxx

  • hi kate i know what you mean i am having to dig harder than i ever have  had to i keep getting that  felling of been to the well to many times but some how got to keep pushing through.every day is a mountain climb but the peaks seem higher every day i understand that you know that feeling.i will give that book a look.my sleep is all over the place not good like last night or this morning i feel a sleep at about 4.00am ish i was awaken by 8.15am as my alexa device that reminds me its time to take my tablets goes mental lol and my youngest cat comes up stairs and demanding breakfast.the flash backs are nasty and that really plays with my PTSD.and my mind got a bit more twisted out of shape because when i saw cveti out the corner of my eye on friday while shopping.stop me in my track had to do a proper get a grip thing.i am so sorry kate for what you have been through.i know you heard that 100 times over but and its a Big But that was not easy.the night before cveit died the nurse who stayed over night who was so good she said this is going to be the hardest thing you have ever done.i knew it but when it hit. ive never felt pain like it this is some thing we understand.ive never felt so powerless in my whole life its crazy.Some said to me the other night that you feel to much and in my head i said you dont know .Thank you kate sending the hugs back xxx p.s sorry for the slow reply forgot to hit reply and went and did the washing up 

  • Hi Julian, the person that said, “You feel too much”, is very insensitive and judgemental. How would they know what you are going through ? I have had to ‘let” certain friendships go, as they can’t seem to adapt to my new reality. Comments like, “You are in a strange place”, “You can now meet someone else.” Nobody tells me how to feel. On the other hand, I have met three new friends and they understand, and are very supportive. Sorry for my rant. I hope you managed to get some sleep last night. Kind regards, Kate.