Anniversary Month

You know I thought the same this morning, I can't believe it's half way through the year already. 

I don't know what to suggest other than just to go with what you want and how you feel. Do what pleases you and not anyone else, maybe see of you could do some nice things or have some treats? Maybe something Jay would have liked?

I've seen you have a granddaughter,  spend more time with her as I'm sure she brings you joy. Just throwing some things out there. 

Look after yourself x

Thank you PBD7

Yes I have my little granddaughter and she is an absolute joy. I found out also that I am to be a grandmother again my son and daughter in law are expecting their 2nd baby and he or she will arrive around November so a nice wee birthday present for me and mum My birthday is 21st November and my daughter in law is the 4th and seemingly the baby is due around the 10th.  I should be over the moon but just don't feel anything. I am very happy about it all but with every good thing that happens it just all feels that little bit bittersweet because Jay is not here to share it all and I'm feeling guilty to be happy as many have said here and on other sites that people who have lost loved ones actually feel guilty when trying to be happy again.  The wee one starts school in August that was something Jay wanted to be here for but of course cancer had other ideas there. It would have been our wedding anniversary this month too on the 21st and the ironic thing is he just managed to hold on for that and then passed away two days later its as if he was hanging on just to see out one more anniversary with me but the way he was at the end don't think he even knew what day it was never mind our anniversary. Thank you again for your thoughts. Will just see what the month brings. Take Care.

Vicky xx

Hi Patty, it is so difficult isn’t it. My husband passed on the 4th August last year, and I have started to think about that date. I have also started looking at gravestones, and epitaphs. I can feel the memories pushing on the edge of my mind. It is starting to replay the events leading up to his death, and his last day in the hospice. I think it is my brain’s way of protecting me. Otherwise, the shock would be too much. If I accept the pain now, maybe the day won’t be as difficult. Sending hugs to all. Kate. Xxx

Ah congratulations on the new baby coming. I totally understand that it must feel bittersweet.

Thought it was just me that didn't feel anything, well other than anger and pain. Anything else, there's just nothing there, not that anything good has happened. 

A double whammy with your wedding anniversary also. It will be hard. What about a trip somewhere, or day trip? Though I know how difficult that is too. I seem not to be able to travel now like I used to. 

Anyway, thoughts are with you, hope you're able to find something that brings you some peace at some points x