Re-imagining the future?

Hi Toosoon.

I have my husbands ashes here with me too. Years ago I would have scoffed at that because found it creepy for people to keep their loved ones ashes now though, I get it. I just don't know what to do with them either so `he` sits in his union Jack urn in the corner and is quite happy so in a way he is still here with me. Yeah the food thing. I have become a conniseur of the `ready meals` used to scoff at them too but some are really good- and filling just enough for me. I was just so used to Jay (my husband) making huge platefuls of food and the fridge was always full of all sorts of stuff and now its practically empty. Cooking was his passion and he would cook for an army. I do cook for myself but nothing as elaborate as Jay used to make spices, sauces etc all had to be added somewhere he loved all the cooking programmes on TV with the celebrity chefs. 

I have gone back to a lot of my interests I had to shelve while he was ill and I had to look after him. Went back to the gym at the beginning of 2024 after a two year absence I have went back to online learning as well. A college local to where I am ran free online courses during lockdown 5 years ago and I did some and quite enjoyed them so decided to go back to them. I also have my little grandaughter who I look after regularly too and I have gone back to knitting which I find quite relaxing. Think we all eventually find our own way forwards. Take Care. 

Vicky xx