Tomorrow is my husbands direct cremation I have this morning had an attempt at a teardrop floral display to place on his coffin for his final journey. I used a mixture of shop bought flowers and some roses Lilly’s and foliage from our garden. Something I’ve never done before still can’t believe why I’m doing it it’s been two weeks tomorrow since he died but I think he would appreciate my efforts.
I feel so lost without him, we had no children together although he has from previous marriage and we just did everything together. From the moment I wake up to my early and even earlier nights I just want to be with him. I know it’s very early days GOD I WISH HE WAS HERE!
I find it easier to just come to bed at the moment as I don’t want tv or radio. I have cried more than I ever have and in front of strangers I don’t want to be a widow I want my husband and our old life back we had a fantastic marriage I could just do with his hug right now or his hand in mine.
