Help

hi i understand what you are feeling iam in a similar situation and feel very much the same way one i got yesterday was its ok not to get over it i got it but its not easy what i have learnt is there seems to nothing to take the pain away its just has to worked with every day i can only deal with each day i dont see the future so its just day by day living hoping that something will happen to dampen the way we feel i wish there was more i could tell.But if you have not contacted your gp now would be the time but if you then forgive me for pointing it out.all i can say is just hold on.with every thing you can thats what iam doing but in truth ive give up but i havre to holg out for my son.what ever it is you need to do to help yourself to do it but i know form the bottom of my heart it IS not easy some days its a fight hour by hour all of cveti things are still here no is touching them.I have forgotten the future and its just day by day.even our cats behaviour has changed they both go looking for her and sit by the doors or in the hallway just waiting for her.i wish i could give you some information that could help but the best i can do is if you want to talk iam about all day and my laptop is right in front of me please takecare 

Its so painful.  I feel bad as have 2 adult children and I can't feel any love for them as it feels like my heart has died. I feel angry that it's happened when we were absolute soul mates. He was only 54 and we talked of retirement and being together all the time now feel got nothing to look forward to. I said to him once take me with you, which he said you've got 2 kids of course u can't. People say they there for me etc but nobody really understands how awful it is as they all happy in their relationships.  Thank you for replying I appreciate that x