18 months since my husband died, I have family and friends around me and try to carry on with things putting on a smile. I still feel lost and lonely it doesn't get easier
My dear husband of 40 years will be gone two years next month (June). I can't tell you if it will get better because we all grieve differently. For me though, I have I felt moved forward be it just slightly. I have managed to do several things without him things I thought I would never be able to do on my own and I just hope he's up there looking down proud of what I have managed so far. When he was going through his treatment and in his final days I just did not see a way forward without him and was in a very dark place and it was him that said to me that I would make it without him and that I was stronger than I knew. My one big event in this time has been my son's wedding which we held just back in February there. Valentines weekend of all times and just two days after Jay's (my husband) birthday. It was a lovely day though but just a bit bittersweet because he wasn't there but I got through it and everything went well for them. Another milestone he'll miss is my little granddaughter starting school this August. He wanted to be here for that and was determined to be but unfortunately cancer and sepsis had other plans for him. Just a few other things have happened too that he is not here to share with but I just keep telling myself he will be somewhere around watching. Just come here when you feel you need to as we all `get it` it's a good place to come and let off steam or scream and shout or whatever. My best wishes to you moving forward.
