Feeling Low

Hi there, yes I did have a good cry. I feel better for it. I just feel so alone at times. I miss what we had, and I miss the hugs and hand holding. Kate.xxx

I know it's crap the person we need to get through this is the one person we are grieving.  I got round M&S without crying today, bought more food for the freezer for some reason not cooked anything for 10 days. Just hot cross buns and crumpets if anything recently.  Got a sausage roll for tea tonight. 3 months from tonight it's going to be a hard couple of days( what's new). Take care 

Hi Ghostlovescore,

It will also be 3 months tomorrow since I lost my partner. I am sorry you are going through this awful pain. I miss him so much and will talk to him on the way to work every morning.  I visit his grave all the time which gives me some comfort but every time I leave I feel more sad. The other day 2 magpies came and sat right next to me when I was visiting him so I like to believe that Paul wants me to be happy. I have a friend of his that messages me every day. Tbh I don’t know what I would have done without him. He lives up North and I am south but his messages and support have kept me going. I spent 2 months not really eating and lost so much weight but I am now trying to eat properly and have started running again which has helped. Some days are so overwhelming I can’t do anything. I hope you are ok, message anytime we are all here to support one another xx 

Thank you Butterfly77. Please remember we are here to support you as well. Iam glad you are Starting to eat properly. I have gone down 3 notches on my belt. Probably a good thing. Sue always looked after me that way to well. 

 I hope we both manage tomorrow OK. I am not religious but I will walk up to the church tomorrow, and Light a candle for Sue. I did it last month and hope to continue. Plus it makes me get out for a walk. Take care and please look after yourself. 

Sorry l am of course sorry you are also going through this.

Good luck today. I hope we both get through it. Take care. 

I have had many dreams of my partner who I lost on Christmas Day 2024 but they are normally of him breaking the relationship off , I wake in night or morning my heart pumping so fast thinking it is just a dream but i can't touch him to reassure myself just a nightmare because the nightmare is real although he left me by passing away not ending our beautiful relationship.  Then it makes me feel rubbish all day. I normally get in bed and look at pics of him, us, or switch his phone on looking at his stuff then cry my eyes out. Probably torturing myself doing it but can't stop it either 

I saw a good quote. Remember they died loving you till the end of there life. I still look at pictures, trying to remember the happiness we had together.  Then the tears flow. Sorry. I hope you are OK as much as you can be. Take care.

Today I am making myself walk up to the church. I'm not religious but I am going to light a candle for Sue. I did it on the 2 month date. 3 month today,13 weeks tomorrow. I just want to believe we will be together again. 

How are you today? I hope you are ok and managed to get to the church to light your candle. I went and laid some flowers at Paul’s grave and have been looking at our photos. I was recommended this book by a friend. At first I could not pick it up but I have started to read it and it has helped me. It goes through the 5 stages of grief and how you go backwards and forwards through each phase. I certainly haven’t reached the acceptance phase yet but it has helped. I realised I was not going mad with all the feelings I was experiencing. I have copied the link for you just in case you wanted to have a look x

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