Feeling Low

We would sleep facing each other. Valen , one hand lightly on my arm. Me with a hand holding his elbow. Even in the last few weeks when he had to sleep sitting up in bed.
I can’t sleep facing inwards now. I still get agitated trying to do so. 
But nearly 11 months in I still find it hard sleeping facing outwards. 
I have him on top of the drawers at night, so I’m facing him. Which I do find quite comforting. 

I barely got the iron out before. But now everything gets ironed! It passes the time.

i am feeling drained now, but tummy seems to be settled. At least the uncomfortable bloating is nearly gone. So ma6 get some sleep. 

How long do you have to 5am the steroids?

Same here he’s on his bedside cabinet which I dusted off earlier today with a little photo haven’t got any proper photos printed off yet too many lovely ones to choose from and a lot of tears coming when I do manage it. 

Don’t know hopefully until my symptoms with my kidneys improve I had to collect 600 of them the other day as the chemist didn’t have enough i tucked into my husbands stash which he was finally weaned off a few months before he died it’s as if I knew I’d be put on them! 

It's hard, how good days can turn bad,but seldom the other way around. 

 I can't believe I am now on week 29. Friday nights, Saturday mornings don't seem to get any easier. The flashbacks and reliving it still happen. Been for a walk, had to get some milk,came back crying. The loneliness is so hard. Hopefully it's just a bad wave day again.

MrsVT I hope you are feeling better today. It's horrible not having your loved ,to help you when you are not well.

Toosoon, I hope your kidneys improve soon.

Take care everyone.