My husband died on the 19th December 24 from bowel cancer which had spread to his liver, after the first round of treatment everything was going so well, but he never got the operation on time so the liver tumours grew and tripled. So back into chemo,
After 27 rounds of different chemo drugs, they just stopped doing their job. In October we were told he only had weeks left. Andy stayed at home with me until the end, I can't get over losing him, I feel so lost and lonely, Andy wasn't just my husband he was my best friend my soulmate, my forever.
I cry myself to sleep every night and wake up feeling exhausted.
It's still a very short time since you lost your husband. Try and be kind to yourself: you had your husband at home and you were able to spend precious time with him even while knowing that his time with you was limited. It will be a long time before you start to feel better but I'm told it will happen. Five months on, I'm still waiting.
Six months on, I am still waiting too. The nasty cold weather doesn’t help either. Sending hugs. Kate.xxx
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