Recovering from a bout of the worst flu ever, so bad that I was in hospital for 3 days. All I thought about was this would not have happened if Tony was still here, he'd have looked after me and nursed me better.
Now I'm home and feel more alone than ever.
I feel that there's nowhere for me to go, I'm stuck here motionless like being trapped in time. Still too sick to go out, just here with my thoughts, alone.
People try, they do tasks for me like shopping etc, make sure I'm eating, that sort of thing, but now they've taken to telling me what I should and shouldn't be doing. It's like because I've been ill I can no longer make any decisions or can no longer possibly know what I want.
Im really struggling at the moment and I just can't see when this nightmare end!!
