Bad Day

Mrs_S 15 days ago

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Today has been such a bad day, its only been 4 days but feels like forever. I know i will have days like this and it is still so fresh. I have a physical pain in my heart. My husband was my absolute world, we spent every day together. I miss his cuddles, hearing i love you., everything about him.

I talk to him all the time but the house is so empty.

I try to go for a walk every day because it becomes too overwhelming but around 3pm till about 6, a darkness comes over me and i feel like i cant breath.

I just cant imagine continuing my life without him, and at the moment i dont want to. Im 43 and the thought of the years ahead alone is too much. He would have been 57 tomorrow. Life is so cruel and unfair, he was the kindest, most generous man i have ever met. My soulmate.

Ma78 15 days ago

I'm so sorry for your situation. Very very gradually it will get better. Time does more or less heal, eventually. You will never get over it but you will get used to it. You will cope because you have to. 4 days is very early days. I lost my son nearly 4 years ago and of course am still grieving and thinking of him every day and every night. But I am no longer sobbing 24/7. Things will improve for you. Keeping busy helps but I know you won't be up to that so soon. I find gardening is helpful. It is something to look forward to when everything seems so bleak. Sending virtual hugs.

Sulubee 15 days ago

Nothing I can say will make it feel any better but just know that we all understand what you are feeling and when you are ready you can come on here which is a safe space and you can cry or vent or simply chat.

I am sending you a huge hug because that is what you need at the moment.

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