It’s my anniversary tomorrow, 4months after my husbands death . Next week my birthday , then what would have been his , then Christmas . All these “firsts “ to face and then what ? It all continues again . But …. There’s nothing that will change it . I still can’t believe he’s gone . I miss his voice , his face . Talking to him . I felt unwell today and being here alone was hard . No one to be here for me , get me paracetamol etc . It’s so hard being alone and lonely . I didn’t realise just how hard it would be xx
I'm so sorry for your loss.
That's alot of firsts all coming close together, I'm sending you strength and a hug.
The world keeps turning and we really want time to stand still, it can feel very frightening and incredibly lonely.
Look after yourself, reach out on this forum we all understand.
Hello, let me be the first to say how sorry I. am about your sad loss. It is very hard I know. You made a huge step in coming on here. We all understand completely, even though we are all at different stages of this grief journey. Everyone deals with it differently but we can come on to this forum and share just what you feel.Early days for you, so don't rush things and do what you can. I found those early months went by in a blur. I did start a journal though, sometimes just writing things down, helped a bit. I now look back on it and read it, two years later, and am surprised at what I did. I hope you have support/ family. nearby .Minute by minute and our thoughts are with you.
Hugs too. I am here if you need to talk.
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