Where’s my sign?

Yes, I do. That’s why I am up right now (again]. Having a cup of coffee to calm myself. Xxx

Thank god for this forum site!!!

Yep.

I can so relate to what you are saying. Strangely in the past when close members pass, I had a bright green light come into my bedroom after my sister passing, it happened two nights in a row. I was going through a divorce with my first husband, I’m sure it was to give me comfort from my sister. Also when hubbys mum died I saw this green light beside him when he was sleeping, I knew she had passed away, the phone went at 8.00am from her care home. Well I’m so disappointed, I’ve not had this from him this time, I’m a bit disappointed as it would give me some comfort. I did get a delivery of a bottle of brandy the day after he died from Amazon, he must have ordered it the morning he died but there was also a bottle of whisky for him so he wasn’t planning on going anywhere. I’ve had a little drink of brandy at night. 

I asked my husband in his last week to give me a sign, that he's around. He laughed and said will everyone stop asking me for sign.

End of conversation.

My husbands family in Ireland, are taking comfort in a little Robin that has been around since my husband passed.

I want a Robin, a feather, a butterfly..... its not fair.

I'm very very thankful my husband gave me the code, to his phone in his last days. I'm still paying his contract and will do for a long time I think.

There are some great tech people out there, who can help..... just gotta find the right one.

I often vent on here. Especially at night and it's very true, just writing to you all, calms me down and distracts me.

Love and hugs to you all xx

It’s my beautiful man’s funeral tomorrow.

Been sick twice this evening. 

His family are trying to change his plans at the last minute. 
Standing my ground with the help of the funeral director and priest.

Tomorrow is the last time I can physically stroke his face and hands. 
Today was bad enough knowing that. 

My mum is really struggling. They hit it off straight away and went for little walks together. 
I guess that focusing on her tomorrow will help me get through.

Still no signs for me from him. 
But judging by everyone else you can’t move for sunflowers and butterfly’s. 
And yes, robins in Ireland!

Tomorrow will be horrible, but you will get through it.

Try and concentrate on yourself, as much as you want to support your mum. You need to be selfish, this is YOUR husband and your final good bye

See if a good friend can support your mum, so you can concentrate on the day.

I know it's a very odd thing to do..... but I took a couple of pictures of my husband in his coffin, just side angle, not full on. 

I put lots of photos with him, of us and our cats. I also pricked my finger and put my blood on his finger....... a tiny bit of me with him...... told you I was odd.

I'll be thinking of you tomorrow lovely. 

Sending you huge hugs and love xx

Oh what an absolutely wonderful idea about the blood! 
I totally get it!

Ive taken a few pictures of him. 
Especially as he looks better than he did in his last 2 weeks. 
He now looks like my husband.  
Ive taken pictures of his face but also his hands holding the heart and flower I gave him.

Ive put a couple of chillis in his pocket, our wedding vows in his chest pocket.
A dog treat in another pocket and a copy of our last holiday picture together.

I feel lucky that though I have my own extremely mashed up religion, taking bits from here and there, the Roman Catholic priest for his funeral mass and requiem is a nice warm man who has given my lovely husband everything he wants which has made it slightly less intimidating.  
 

I love we can put things with our loved ones now. 

When my husband was in the funeral parlour and and at his family home, he had his vape in his hand.

Had to be taken out before the services, or he might of blown the crematorium up lol.

I've never been overly religious but I got comfort, when the priests visited in hospital and when I visited the chapel quite a few times. 

Love and hugs xx

Hi there, I’m sending you courage, strength, beauty and dignity for tomorrow. I will be thinking about you. Xxx