Every night I talk to my husband, who passed 1st August this year.
I say, got through another day hun, and then I read, but my mind goes to images of him in his hospital and him asking me to hold his hand or give him a hug.
It's breaking my heart, tonight more than ever. I want to keep those images, coz it was lovely, he wasn't one for holding hands but I think he was scared.
I miss him so much, it really really does hurt.
Do any of you go to grief groups, do they help?
I don't have a big groups of friends to talk and they are caught up in their own lives......and rightly so.
Ugh sorry I'm waffling on. Might try and read again. Sorry to bore you.
Oh my such early days for you. This week was just a year since I lost my husband and best friend. It becomes different the pain subsides but the missing of them never goes away.
Am I coping a year on - yes and no. Some days feel like I could climb mountains others I just want to stay in bed.
I had counselling through work back in October which I don't think helped but I've just started private counselling and spent time seeking someone a bereavement specialist and I do think it's helped or I'm at the right time for the counselling.
It's tough but realising your not alone through online chats is so supportive. Everyone's life moves on but ours stands still and you only understand that once you've been there.
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